One more thing
For that person who was leaving "annoynmous" messages to me, so that you are more comfortable with what you say to me, I have screened those out of the thread so no one else can see what you wrote to me. I thought that would be a nice thing to do for you. To show you that I care about you and what you say. And I got the email. And I made one reply, but I am not "ready" to reply to the entire letter yet. I don't want to destroy the rest of our friendship. Sorry. I do care how you guys feel. I just don't want to say anything that I will regret later. I hope you both have thought about that, too. If you have, damn. Also, I highly doubt that what I write on here matters to much of anyone, except those involved. The only people who know about this are people who I already know. It is a JOURNAL. It is used to write about feelings and what not. But maybe I should use it to warn girls who are "friends with benifits" or "fuck friends" with any of their guy friends not to be too flirtty....they may bring something on themselves. Isn't that what you said??? Dorothy? God that just pisses me off and hurts me to the core at the same time. I hope you realize that. If your goal was to hurt me, you succeeded. Congratulations. You reminded me why I isolated myself from the majority of my friends during the hardest part of last fall. I don't know how many other of my friends would reply like that, too. And I didn't want to have to hear it. I'm not saying that I want to isolate or break off our friendship, but I want you to see the whole picture. Your side and mine. I'm sorry. I had to say it.