"What a world-What a world..."
ignoring feelings somethings hurt more then knowing you were the fool....
ive taken alot of people off and somepeople saved me the trobule- the people i have left on here are select and few for a couple of reasons-
im sick of the drama
im moving on with out alot of people , being cingular is always just easier
ive been getting sick again-yet i have ajob(dontknow how thats gunna turn out)
-im settled in my new home and im not leaving
-i refuse to go on anymore boring dates
-i refuse to be lead in to another doomed relationship,so just dont even try
-im happy ,in my own way-yet the depression as hit alow simailar to 2003
-i missed prom- it was my own doing but i regreat it gravely,
-i almost never regreat anything i ussaly take it as a learning experience
-im getting a tattoo of yes a star you guessed it sometime in june probully in a few weeks
-i decided to finish "son of a witch"as soon as posible
-i started reading the bible again- i may start going to church agian too
-honestly i dont even knowif i beleave in god anymore
-ive come to terms witht he fact ive been mad at my grandmother for dying and leaving me here with noone who really cared the lest bit about me
-im adopting the idea that my mothermie accualy care abiit about me but it sems only since my grandmother died ive seen this new side of her
-i havent been abel to sleep in along time its becoming a big problum
-im over thinking ,all the time - last night i was haveing a serious converstion with soemone and all i wanted to do was write the things i knew i shoudl be saying, so evenully i got out my notebook and started writing-i didin t leave the two page letter i wrote to them , i left a three or four liner note letting them know i was there if they needed me
back to the reasons- i want to be left alone
ive taken alot of people off and somepeople saved me the trobule- the people i have left on here are select and few for a couple of reasons-
im sick of the drama
im moving on with out alot of people , being cingular is always just easier
ive been getting sick again-yet i have ajob(dontknow how thats gunna turn out)
-im settled in my new home and im not leaving
-i refuse to go on anymore boring dates
-i refuse to be lead in to another doomed relationship,so just dont even try
-im happy ,in my own way-yet the depression as hit alow simailar to 2003
-i missed prom- it was my own doing but i regreat it gravely,
-i almost never regreat anything i ussaly take it as a learning experience
-im getting a tattoo of yes a star you guessed it sometime in june probully in a few weeks
-i decided to finish "son of a witch"as soon as posible
-i started reading the bible again- i may start going to church agian too
-honestly i dont even knowif i beleave in god anymore
-ive come to terms witht he fact ive been mad at my grandmother for dying and leaving me here with noone who really cared the lest bit about me
-im adopting the idea that my mothermie accualy care abiit about me but it sems only since my grandmother died ive seen this new side of her
-i havent been abel to sleep in along time its becoming a big problum
-im over thinking ,all the time - last night i was haveing a serious converstion with soemone and all i wanted to do was write the things i knew i shoudl be saying, so evenully i got out my notebook and started writing-i didin t leave the two page letter i wrote to them , i left a three or four liner note letting them know i was there if they needed me
back to the reasons- i want to be left alone