Almost
Whew, I made it to age twenty. Thats two decades under my belt and the knowledge (in my humble opinion) to back it up.
i dont know what made me write in you, oh livejournal but I have been feeling most poetic/blah these last few weeks.
I feel like i am chasing something that never comes any nearer. I constantly question my every move wondering what web I am spinning. Am i taking the right routes, risking the right chances? Life is a guessing game and I sometimes wonder if luck is on my side. My past never seems to go away as I am reminded every day where I came from. I hoped moving to a new school would give a fresh start but I find myself wanting to go back to my old ways. Who am I trying to kid anyways, they are sure to see through me sooner or later.
Am i cut out for what i dream to be? The days just seem to get longer and I feel I'm about to burnout. Should I strive for more? Can I take anymore?
Coming home this weekend was a bleak realization of who I was and who I intend to be. The familar faces were a wake up call as to why I am here today. They may be thinning throughout the years and that just makes me realize who the true ones are. It's sad to think of the ones you have lost throughout the years but an even more happy realization that you must have done something right to have the ones you do by your side.
i guess i have finally realized that everyone makes mistakes and that you are going to make some good and bad decisions. All you must realize is that every decision you make shapes you in some way. Life is all about lessons learned and building relationships. It is really hard to make it throughout life on your own, so hang on to the ones that matter, because they will be the most important in the end.
Coming back to school made me realize how much i still have yet to learn about people and life in general. Every day is a uphill battle, and many fall under the increasing pressure. Most of the faces from my freshman year no longer grace my presence, many of the faces this year will just be fond memories next. Everything does happen for a reason and I know everything will be okay in the end. I figure I must have done something right to have the wonderful people i do have in my life.
See ya in another six months (ha)
i dont know what made me write in you, oh livejournal but I have been feeling most poetic/blah these last few weeks.
I feel like i am chasing something that never comes any nearer. I constantly question my every move wondering what web I am spinning. Am i taking the right routes, risking the right chances? Life is a guessing game and I sometimes wonder if luck is on my side. My past never seems to go away as I am reminded every day where I came from. I hoped moving to a new school would give a fresh start but I find myself wanting to go back to my old ways. Who am I trying to kid anyways, they are sure to see through me sooner or later.
Am i cut out for what i dream to be? The days just seem to get longer and I feel I'm about to burnout. Should I strive for more? Can I take anymore?
Coming home this weekend was a bleak realization of who I was and who I intend to be. The familar faces were a wake up call as to why I am here today. They may be thinning throughout the years and that just makes me realize who the true ones are. It's sad to think of the ones you have lost throughout the years but an even more happy realization that you must have done something right to have the ones you do by your side.
i guess i have finally realized that everyone makes mistakes and that you are going to make some good and bad decisions. All you must realize is that every decision you make shapes you in some way. Life is all about lessons learned and building relationships. It is really hard to make it throughout life on your own, so hang on to the ones that matter, because they will be the most important in the end.
Coming back to school made me realize how much i still have yet to learn about people and life in general. Every day is a uphill battle, and many fall under the increasing pressure. Most of the faces from my freshman year no longer grace my presence, many of the faces this year will just be fond memories next. Everything does happen for a reason and I know everything will be okay in the end. I figure I must have done something right to have the wonderful people i do have in my life.
See ya in another six months (ha)