keep at it
my ex-officemate was inviting me to have coffe yesterday afternoon. it has been a long overdue coffee date. it used to be a lunch or dinner get together but we both though that it would be good for us if it was cheaper. how sad things are.
at the office, people think im boring and a KJ. some even consider me being a lolo. all because i refuse to join them on their after office bienges. and when we have office gatherings and celebrations, i'm one of the few who goes home early.
besides having to rush and catch the last train home to save on fare, i need to save for my insurance thats due on the 18th. after that i need to save for my next years insurance.
there's not much excitement going on with my life. i want to take up several things, capoeira, zippin, and frisbee to name a few. but all these are just dreams right now. 350 pesos for a capoiera class already burns a huge whole in my pocket.
i know its wrong to be depending so much on money. but lets face it its one of the few things that makes the world go round. i just want a comfortable life. not the ones that people in makati live (no offense to em peeps!). i just wanna be able to wake up in the morning without my back and mattress wet with sweat. i just wanna be able to go meet up with friends and have a few hours of a good time without having to worry about how much gas its going to cost me. i just wanna be able to have a decent meal where i don't have to scan the menu for the cheapest dish and start computing.
i know i have so much to be thankful for. i have a roof over my head,food on the table, clothes on my back... but it seems it not enough. it seems that i wont ever be content with what i have. why can't i be content with what i have?
to think that all these are happening because Kuya Jess is trying to tell me, my fmaily something. our lives used to be better than this. way more comfortable than this. and we took it for granted. and i've learned that. im still learnign that. but it seems like its never going to end. no matter how much i try to make things better, at least for myself, it just won't work.
the only thing for me to do right now is to keep on trying and keep on believing... and thats exactly what im going to do. here goes nothing! *crosses fingers*
at the office, people think im boring and a KJ. some even consider me being a lolo. all because i refuse to join them on their after office bienges. and when we have office gatherings and celebrations, i'm one of the few who goes home early.
besides having to rush and catch the last train home to save on fare, i need to save for my insurance thats due on the 18th. after that i need to save for my next years insurance.
there's not much excitement going on with my life. i want to take up several things, capoeira, zippin, and frisbee to name a few. but all these are just dreams right now. 350 pesos for a capoiera class already burns a huge whole in my pocket.
i know its wrong to be depending so much on money. but lets face it its one of the few things that makes the world go round. i just want a comfortable life. not the ones that people in makati live (no offense to em peeps!). i just wanna be able to wake up in the morning without my back and mattress wet with sweat. i just wanna be able to go meet up with friends and have a few hours of a good time without having to worry about how much gas its going to cost me. i just wanna be able to have a decent meal where i don't have to scan the menu for the cheapest dish and start computing.
i know i have so much to be thankful for. i have a roof over my head,food on the table, clothes on my back... but it seems it not enough. it seems that i wont ever be content with what i have. why can't i be content with what i have?
to think that all these are happening because Kuya Jess is trying to tell me, my fmaily something. our lives used to be better than this. way more comfortable than this. and we took it for granted. and i've learned that. im still learnign that. but it seems like its never going to end. no matter how much i try to make things better, at least for myself, it just won't work.
the only thing for me to do right now is to keep on trying and keep on believing... and thats exactly what im going to do. here goes nothing! *crosses fingers*