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[lostserenade]

When you got nothing, you got nothing to lose
You're invisible now, you got no secrets to conceal.

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be on your own
With no direction home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?

let me tell you bob, its lonely

yes i loved you
and im a drunk
but i loved you nonetheless
no matter what i had said in this same drunken state in some message board or e-mail
i mean

jesus fuck
you were the only thing i had to rely on
but i have the tendency to self destruct
and to look for self loathing

i dont even know the words to say

but i was in love

and still feel love for her

nonetheless last night was the first night i hadnt felt all alone for the last 2 months
maybe its because last night was the night it was truly over

i dont know fuck
im so drunk

THIS IS A BLACK OUT

here is another lyric

actually i was going to type another lyric from the good life
but i forgot it
and im to lazy
and its too depressing to actually read or write in here

so just
fuck it

loneliness punches you right in the gut when you least expect it

but im glad i cant hurt you anymore
i was bad for you anyways
im just bad news
plain and simple

im deleting this journal
im moving
and trying to move on
please come see me in spring with david dondero
you will be so proud of me

fucking bad news