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I've been trying to write this email for 2 days now. Still can't quite manage it. Why's it always so hard? She said something about wanting to come visit, but not aving the money, and then about how she was starting a new job. I'd love that, but it's more than a little scary. Seeing her again could destroy me in so many ways. Even if it's exactly like before she left, can I let her go again? Not to mention that thoughts like this are hypocritical and blasphemous, but i can't get them out of my head. So once again, i'm going to walk way a bit to think, and leave that reply page open. I'm such a pussy.