breathe, stretch, shake, let it go
what an interesting weekend...it was pretty much a search for epistimilogical purposes within myself....a lot of thoughts to write down in depth but here is the cliff notes of my search for knoweldge within myself...
1) i miss parting - meet new people, bottemless beer, it forces me to release my anti-social ways
2) i gotta stop smoking cigarettes- just a health choice here, and an obvious one, i've been making progress, i've been cutting back now for a week, i only smoke almost half a cig now, and the current pack has lasted me 3 days, maybe 4 now
3) i gotta smoke pot only situationaly for right now - i really have to cut down on this, i mean yeah, it's a huge problem, i acknowledge it, there is no way though that i'm gonna just quit flat out forever as of right now, that's just an unrealistic goal that will just lead me to smoking longer, so far i'm limiting myself to not everyday, and not around sheena, because i really don't like the way i am when i'm high around her, i get burnt out and then don't end up remembering much, and that's the last thing i really need is to forget things about a person that i want to know more about, i think if i start doing this eventualy lead to my overall quitting, just need the will power...and i'm pretty sure i have that after looking within this last week and especialy weekend...i have a future to think about on top of the now
4)need to open up communication with sheena - yes we all know this...i've been trying, but it's hard when we live two opposite scheduals as of right now, but yeah we are gonna be talking very soon about everything...i think once we get this big thing out, then things will get better...but until then, we don't know, and i just am sick of having a girlfriend that i can't talk to or share things with because of conflicting scheduals, i really would find that a shame if that was our demise, opposite scheduals,,,something so trival and easy to solve, but i have confidence that it wont be
5)go to class more - i've already been doing this...i've been going to class like crazy, i think i only missed one class last week, but i think with the cutting down of pot this one will be a sinch
and yeah that's my agenda for right now...i already was cutting down on pot on weeks of tests, but i found out that it's not good to do that because then i'm like wee after words and smoke like i want to burn down the fucking house...and that's just rediculous.. i just need to focus on life and not escaping it, no matter how much it sucks at time, and i guess that's how the whole pot thing started...so yeah
now U2 is playing from my itunes play list...walk on, how fitting of a song...
well i'm off to do some dishes...good day lj
1) i miss parting - meet new people, bottemless beer, it forces me to release my anti-social ways
2) i gotta stop smoking cigarettes- just a health choice here, and an obvious one, i've been making progress, i've been cutting back now for a week, i only smoke almost half a cig now, and the current pack has lasted me 3 days, maybe 4 now
3) i gotta smoke pot only situationaly for right now - i really have to cut down on this, i mean yeah, it's a huge problem, i acknowledge it, there is no way though that i'm gonna just quit flat out forever as of right now, that's just an unrealistic goal that will just lead me to smoking longer, so far i'm limiting myself to not everyday, and not around sheena, because i really don't like the way i am when i'm high around her, i get burnt out and then don't end up remembering much, and that's the last thing i really need is to forget things about a person that i want to know more about, i think if i start doing this eventualy lead to my overall quitting, just need the will power...and i'm pretty sure i have that after looking within this last week and especialy weekend...i have a future to think about on top of the now
4)need to open up communication with sheena - yes we all know this...i've been trying, but it's hard when we live two opposite scheduals as of right now, but yeah we are gonna be talking very soon about everything...i think once we get this big thing out, then things will get better...but until then, we don't know, and i just am sick of having a girlfriend that i can't talk to or share things with because of conflicting scheduals, i really would find that a shame if that was our demise, opposite scheduals,,,something so trival and easy to solve, but i have confidence that it wont be
5)go to class more - i've already been doing this...i've been going to class like crazy, i think i only missed one class last week, but i think with the cutting down of pot this one will be a sinch
and yeah that's my agenda for right now...i already was cutting down on pot on weeks of tests, but i found out that it's not good to do that because then i'm like wee after words and smoke like i want to burn down the fucking house...and that's just rediculous.. i just need to focus on life and not escaping it, no matter how much it sucks at time, and i guess that's how the whole pot thing started...so yeah
now U2 is playing from my itunes play list...walk on, how fitting of a song...
well i'm off to do some dishes...good day lj