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Soooo today i kind of realized some stuff... not like horrible or anything i just realized that i m just not going to put as much effort into things anymore and stop worrying sooo much.. I mean lately i havent had much time to spend with my friends hell i havent seen them like at all considering how much we used to hang out... And its like when i actually get time to hang out with them i will call them and try to get together... but i m done with calling five million times... i dont have a problem with being the person to call... thats not even a big deal but when i make plans with people and then that person doesnt respond to those plans or doesnt pick up there phone the entire day or takes 3 hours just to take a shower i get a lil pissed.. i dont get that much time and when i do i would out of respect expect them to put a lil effort in.. I m not saying i m done with being friends with these people i m just simpliy saying dont expect me to call... and once i do call and we make plans dont expect me to call again if you decide your going to take 9 hours to take your time doing stuff like if we say we r going to the mall then u take 3 hours watching tv and doing your hair and another 2 taking a shower i m only calling once and if i end up being busy by the time your done o well thats not my problem... I love u guys like crazy but its getting ridiculous... It just feels like a 90-10 ratio on the friendship scale i shouldnt be the one to call everyday and i shouldnt have to wait around 5 hours while you take your sweet ass time doing things... i m not saying you have to stop doing that stuff but dont fuckin waste my time then... if we agree to get together around 3 i expect it to be no later then a 30 min difference not 4 hours later that we get around to it... I m not saying if i call i expect u to drop everything if u cant hang out when i call thats cool i dont mind... but dont make plans and then basically waste my day when i wait around thinking you'll actually be ready... anyways lov u all like crazy but its just happening way to often and i want to enjoy my life not sit around waiting for it.. :) and this has been building up its not like it just happend or anything anyways night.