summer
so i'm home for summer. yay! i kept saying how it would go by really fast once it got here, but so far not so much. i kind of want it to go by fast, for two reasons. 1) that usually means you're having fun, and 2) i have a whole other life waiting for me back in wisconsin. it's weird, i'm home, but i'm homesick. not even really for a place, cuz i won't be living in the same place, but for that other side of me. it's really hard to describe. i feel so much younger here, with friends and family who have all watched me grow up, i'll always be a kid to my parents, and it will take more time for them to stop treating me like a kid, but in wisconsin, no one has known me longer than a year and all the shit i've gone through, it doesn't exist there. i had the chance to start over, and while i myself didn't change, i got to forget some of the crap i had to go through to become who i am now. does that make sense.
i've decided home is not a place. this is a big discovery for me, especially since i've lived in the same place my entire life (minus the two years in ireland). home is the people who care about you. i will always have a home in los angeles, that will never change. i will always have a home wherever my friends move because i can visit them, knowing they will always love me, and slowly but surely, i am making myself a home in wisconsin. it's a slow process and it'll take time, but i know that by the time i graduate in three years (god willing), i will have people there who love me, just like i do in LA.
i've decided home is not a place. this is a big discovery for me, especially since i've lived in the same place my entire life (minus the two years in ireland). home is the people who care about you. i will always have a home in los angeles, that will never change. i will always have a home wherever my friends move because i can visit them, knowing they will always love me, and slowly but surely, i am making myself a home in wisconsin. it's a slow process and it'll take time, but i know that by the time i graduate in three years (god willing), i will have people there who love me, just like i do in LA.