The Frozen Wolf
"There have been many days in which I have sat and wondered how I could have fallen in love with someone so cruel. But I remember too well the way he did care." Sigyn spoke absently as she paced, her mind filled with conflicting thoughts. She knew she was more or less alone in the room but there were things she had to say, things she couldn't allow to sit within her head, to fester into something that would slowly destroy her. "We seem to be two very different people than we had started out as."
Sighing she continues to pace, head tilted forward. "I was so very lost before I met him, so incomplete and hollow. He filled the voids, completed the parts of me I was missing and fixed the breaks within my heart. While we had our fights in the beginning I think it only lent to strengthen our initial love. I remember the day we formed our own union, the day I told him I was with child.. His children.." frowning she lets out a bitter laugh.
"He changed so suddenly and I am not sure what one thing created it all. For all the pain and heartbreak that I had suffered in the days and years before he came to my life.. I have found that all of it was a weak ache compared to the pain he made me feel. He shattered every part of me." lifting her head she walks to the window of her room, pressing her hands to either side of the frame.
"Losing him to what I believed to be his death had been a small blessing. It had given me the chance to be free of the torment, of the pain but, I missed it all too much. At least I knew then that he was still with me even with all of the belittling and angry words we shared. In losing him I found the one thing that could pull me back together, an unexpected alliance." she laughs, shaking her head even as her eyes fill with tears.
"Even though he is alive there is so much of me that wishes he were not. How can I still love someone so much and still be so relieved that he is well? I wish with every fiber of my being that I could hate him, that he would let me be as I wish to. Free of being his burden, of being the thing he now despises. Perhaps the plans I have now are for the best. I can't sit by and be the dog which he abuses to make himself feel better, to remind himself that he is a God." she sets her jaw, eyes narrowing slightly.
"I will no longer be that.. As much as I wish to cling to the memories, of the laughs we once shared, the kindness I know he can possess... That part of him has withered and decayed until there is no part of it left. If I needed any proof, our night within the hotel proved every word of that to be true." she lifts her eyes, the pale blue now flecked with the amber color of the Darkness. They had fused, become one. There was no turning back now that the Darkness controlled so much of her.
She had become nothing more than a puppet.. Though perhaps to her that was no different than how she had been with Loki. She couldn't be sure any longer. Everything seemed to blur together.
"I think now is the time he sees just what he has helped to create... The She-Wolf he so cherished is now a monster in her own right but, perhaps being a monster is something he will all too well understand." her voice took on a slightly different tone as the Darkness slipped further into her mind, taking more control. "The She-Wolf will now become a Queen, a true Goddess, one that shall be both feared and respected. And this Realm.. This pathetic planet... If they do not follow me then they too shall suffer the same fate that will soon befall Asgard. With this formula so very nearly done.. It is only a matter of time before everything is as it should be... And then.. My dear husband will know the true meaning of anguish."
Sighing she continues to pace, head tilted forward. "I was so very lost before I met him, so incomplete and hollow. He filled the voids, completed the parts of me I was missing and fixed the breaks within my heart. While we had our fights in the beginning I think it only lent to strengthen our initial love. I remember the day we formed our own union, the day I told him I was with child.. His children.." frowning she lets out a bitter laugh.
"He changed so suddenly and I am not sure what one thing created it all. For all the pain and heartbreak that I had suffered in the days and years before he came to my life.. I have found that all of it was a weak ache compared to the pain he made me feel. He shattered every part of me." lifting her head she walks to the window of her room, pressing her hands to either side of the frame.
"Losing him to what I believed to be his death had been a small blessing. It had given me the chance to be free of the torment, of the pain but, I missed it all too much. At least I knew then that he was still with me even with all of the belittling and angry words we shared. In losing him I found the one thing that could pull me back together, an unexpected alliance." she laughs, shaking her head even as her eyes fill with tears.
"Even though he is alive there is so much of me that wishes he were not. How can I still love someone so much and still be so relieved that he is well? I wish with every fiber of my being that I could hate him, that he would let me be as I wish to. Free of being his burden, of being the thing he now despises. Perhaps the plans I have now are for the best. I can't sit by and be the dog which he abuses to make himself feel better, to remind himself that he is a God." she sets her jaw, eyes narrowing slightly.
"I will no longer be that.. As much as I wish to cling to the memories, of the laughs we once shared, the kindness I know he can possess... That part of him has withered and decayed until there is no part of it left. If I needed any proof, our night within the hotel proved every word of that to be true." she lifts her eyes, the pale blue now flecked with the amber color of the Darkness. They had fused, become one. There was no turning back now that the Darkness controlled so much of her.
She had become nothing more than a puppet.. Though perhaps to her that was no different than how she had been with Loki. She couldn't be sure any longer. Everything seemed to blur together.
"I think now is the time he sees just what he has helped to create... The She-Wolf he so cherished is now a monster in her own right but, perhaps being a monster is something he will all too well understand." her voice took on a slightly different tone as the Darkness slipped further into her mind, taking more control. "The She-Wolf will now become a Queen, a true Goddess, one that shall be both feared and respected. And this Realm.. This pathetic planet... If they do not follow me then they too shall suffer the same fate that will soon befall Asgard. With this formula so very nearly done.. It is only a matter of time before everything is as it should be... And then.. My dear husband will know the true meaning of anguish."