Wow its New Years Eve...
I cant believe how fast time is going by this year, i just hope the next 2 years go by as fast as this one did. It was a good year and quite a learning experience i'd say. It was my second time being away from my parents home and first time where i had to actually pay bills and support myself, and even though i got extremely poor i enjoyed every minute of it. It made me appreciate money more and im not going to blow it on something stupid next time i have it all saved up. Its hard to believe ive been living here for almost a year now... Me and james have always gotten along great, for the most part, and me and titus have also always been able to get along for some reason too. Even when he was bad mouthed and he bad mouthed everyone else i just didn't get involved with all of that unless i needed too and we've for the most part just been on the same page, besides me not being a racist and me being happy of course! Hopefully he's trying to change again and stop being such a whore,lol, at least he's talking to col again which im happy about. So its been good living with them...
Work has been good, i almost quit this year but decided against it because for one, im leaving soon, and 2, its like another family there. Its even better now that i actually have family working there again, now col and maybe soon james again. I don't see col as much as james does and now she knows why! Cause i work almost everyday, so its good to see her more now, especially since im not going to see her most of her 16 and 17 years. So works been good...
Friends have come and gone. Jamie is still my best friend even though he is a fucking lunatic, but what else is new? Titus has become a good friend of mine the past year as well and i do appreciate that. Some old friends ive talked too have changed alot, or not changed at all, and thats good and bad. Mark, Kim, Jillian and even Heather and whoever else i forgot, ive tried talking to you and its up to you if you want to keep it going. Thats all i got to say about that... Some people i consider new friends such as erin, who is such an awesome person and i just wish i could understand better... :/ Andrew who is cool and my new drinking buddy, along with the hostesses nicole, lindsey, and the rest of the crew. Tony, Sean, Angie, and all the others at shells i consider real friends who would do anything i asked them to do, i say thank you.
Next year... Ah next year is the year that i have been wanting not to come since i found out i was leaving in late 2003, but here it is right in front of me... I just want to appreciate the time i have left here in the US with my family and friends and hopefully save up enough money to take off some time before i leave, bills suck so i dont know if that going to happen with all the debt im in, but i hope it does. Afghanistan... Thats going to be my home this time next year, i can't even imagine what its going to be like over there and even though i think im going to be fine and im going to a part in afghanistan thats not to bad, i know in my head that anything can happen, this is war after all. And that does scare me a little knowing that i may never see my family again or my friends, or just enjoy freedom, but its just something that I have to do. If I dont go over there after preparing for it the past year and a half at my unit and training for how its going to be, i'd think so much less of myself if i did not go. I know no one else would, everyone i know wants me to just stay home and get out, but i can't.. I really would think so much less of myself if i just quit on this, thats probably hard for some people to understand but thats just the way it is...
I'll be fine, just another obstacle in my life that will make me stronger I think...
Things will be so much different when i get home, I'll have money in the bank for a change, almost be done with the military, and will just be able to get my life going again. Start school, not have to worry about leaving anytime soon and just be free. Col and her friends will be 18 when i get back...wow. James will be almost a quarter century old and titus will be almost 21. I can't wait for those times, but for now im just going to enjoy these times im having now and create some new memories that myself and everyone else can think of while im gone and for the rest of our lives. Goodbye 2004, it was a good year...I hope 2005 is better for all and goes by just as fast...Thank you all.
Work has been good, i almost quit this year but decided against it because for one, im leaving soon, and 2, its like another family there. Its even better now that i actually have family working there again, now col and maybe soon james again. I don't see col as much as james does and now she knows why! Cause i work almost everyday, so its good to see her more now, especially since im not going to see her most of her 16 and 17 years. So works been good...
Friends have come and gone. Jamie is still my best friend even though he is a fucking lunatic, but what else is new? Titus has become a good friend of mine the past year as well and i do appreciate that. Some old friends ive talked too have changed alot, or not changed at all, and thats good and bad. Mark, Kim, Jillian and even Heather and whoever else i forgot, ive tried talking to you and its up to you if you want to keep it going. Thats all i got to say about that... Some people i consider new friends such as erin, who is such an awesome person and i just wish i could understand better... :/ Andrew who is cool and my new drinking buddy, along with the hostesses nicole, lindsey, and the rest of the crew. Tony, Sean, Angie, and all the others at shells i consider real friends who would do anything i asked them to do, i say thank you.
Next year... Ah next year is the year that i have been wanting not to come since i found out i was leaving in late 2003, but here it is right in front of me... I just want to appreciate the time i have left here in the US with my family and friends and hopefully save up enough money to take off some time before i leave, bills suck so i dont know if that going to happen with all the debt im in, but i hope it does. Afghanistan... Thats going to be my home this time next year, i can't even imagine what its going to be like over there and even though i think im going to be fine and im going to a part in afghanistan thats not to bad, i know in my head that anything can happen, this is war after all. And that does scare me a little knowing that i may never see my family again or my friends, or just enjoy freedom, but its just something that I have to do. If I dont go over there after preparing for it the past year and a half at my unit and training for how its going to be, i'd think so much less of myself if i did not go. I know no one else would, everyone i know wants me to just stay home and get out, but i can't.. I really would think so much less of myself if i just quit on this, thats probably hard for some people to understand but thats just the way it is...
I'll be fine, just another obstacle in my life that will make me stronger I think...
Things will be so much different when i get home, I'll have money in the bank for a change, almost be done with the military, and will just be able to get my life going again. Start school, not have to worry about leaving anytime soon and just be free. Col and her friends will be 18 when i get back...wow. James will be almost a quarter century old and titus will be almost 21. I can't wait for those times, but for now im just going to enjoy these times im having now and create some new memories that myself and everyone else can think of while im gone and for the rest of our lives. Goodbye 2004, it was a good year...I hope 2005 is better for all and goes by just as fast...Thank you all.