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I gotta figure out my life, and I gotta do it fast. The worst thing happened to me last night. I was having an awsome time with mikey and then all of a sunnden i just got down and freak and it made him feel uncomfortable and awkard and it did me to. It just wasn't fun at all. I can't believe it happened. I've had so much sress on me lately. I need to not freak out about money it not what controls me. yes I need it to get bye but thats not what i need ot worry about. My mom will understand that i will pay her back when i can. But I mean I was talign last night wiht mike. I just gotta figure this out. I'm not ready for this stationary stuff or for college. I mena in the long run i might get a degree and like go into something really cool but i can't Not now. I've kinda fucked the whole college thing up. I wanna travel more and get out there again. I mean i got wheels now and connections and i could do things and go places. I can alwyas get other jobs I just know i gotta figure out whatsbugging me. and i need ot see everyone cuz well i need ot taak to everyone.i just i gotta go