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[lostmybuttons]

previous post didnt really express my thougts, and im being a bitch to my friends because im very very very upset right now. i feel stupid for being this upset by seeing that fucking asshole on tv spilling his bullshit through his shit hole. i just. fuck. this whole thing is ridiculous. ive never been really anti-iraq or expressive about the whole thing. yes, i think its bullshit, but now im really starting to see everything about the stupid war. this man went in and is taking over these peoples lives. well, he didnt but the military did. thats anothing thing. im not mad at the people who are in the military, theyre just doing as their told. im pretty pissed that they sighned up to do this shit, but thats their choice. what does bother me is how bad these people are being treated. a) by their country. the us doesnt give a shit about the people who are over there being maimed and scarred for life. i mean, my mom works at the veterans center, ive seen this shit, ive seen how fucked up these guys, and girls, are when they come back. theyre not even people anymore. ive seen some of the guys who were exposed to agent orange, by our own fucking government. ive seen these guys rolling around in their wheelchairs drooling not even knowing who they are. ive seen guys who cant be around children because they remember all the children they had to kill. ive seen guys who everytime someone drops a book, or anything that makes a loud sound, they curl up and cry and shit because theyre so goddamn brain damaged and shell shocked from the shit their own government did to them. and what about those who dont make it. which are a lot. i mean the family just gets the same photocopied letter with a signature from god knows who thats been photocopied a million times over thats about as sincere as a fucking report card. "dear mrs.smith, we regret to inform you that we killed your husband. heres a check. sincerely. ASSHOLES" goddamnit. not to mention the checks that these women are getting while their husbands are over in the war, are less than the cost of just one persons needs. these women are having to work and take care of the children that got left behind. what are they supposed to tell their children. "daddy will be home soon its ok." bullshit, we all know daddy wont be home, and if he does come home, he wont be daddy, he'll be a fucking body cast, a shell of a person whos soul and life got left behind in the fucking desert. these people are seeing men blow themselves up. what if you had to see that? youd be scarred for life, youd have to be committed, youd be on drugs twenty four seven wouldnt you? you would. what do these men get? a lack of food, a lack of water, death of their fellow men, and deprevation of the very things that we need to live. yeah, they get to send letters and talk to them online sometimes. but thats not the same. its not the same at all, and they have to lie, their wives and parents ask, how are you, and of course they say, im fine sweetie i'll be home soon. but what they dont say is, my best friend got blown up today, i saw a baby die. they dont say that.

no more energy. im going to bed now.