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last night heather casually and carelessly, just came out and asked me if i've seen or heard from Brock lately....i didn't expect her to say something like that. my heart at that second dropped into that hollow space inside of me and i think it's still there. my stomach followed soon after. i acted like it didn't bother me because she acted as if it shouldn't have. i wanted to throw up. i was thinking about him too yesterday wondering how he was. i ended up calling his aunts to see if she knew of a good lawyer so i could go after my dad for back child support for me and she couldn't think of any good ones, but in all actuality i wanted to know how Brock was. i know it's weird, i still talk to his aunt, but she wants me to for some reason. i still think about him from time to time. it hurts a little but then it goes away all on it's own. what can i say, as soon as i found out i had a heart it was soon after broken. it's been almost a year and i've seen other people since, but it always comes back to him.