another night
It has been nothing but the same thing for each and ever day and night to me. Depressed thinking of so much. Reliving the memories i have had. Holding the tearz inside cause no one must know. Confessing my love for him to the only thing that i can talk to and get it straight out in front of. Telling my self he has to still love or something it has to be why he is avoiding me cause he knows as much as i do if i get out how i feel then we will be back together. This is only apart of who I have been for the past few days.
Along with that yestereday I went to the mall to see my grandma on my father's side of the family. I hung out with her and for the first time in the past 3 or 4 days i wasn't servely depressed i did still get upset over being reminded of my father's wedding they wish i would go to and stuff like that. Then that night my father called he tried to talk me into going. I swear the only good thing i get out of that other then my father back that on somedays i wonder if that is ne good is that fact that i gets a pretty purple dress.
Then there is my friends. I don't know wut is going on but someone is out to ruin my life right now cause everytime i talk to one of my friends they seem to be upset with me like yelling cursing saying other things of a ruder nature and i dont know who it is but once i figure things out i will settle them cause that person has me feeling that suicide is my only answer again and i dont need to go down that rode right now. Suicidal thoughts will only upset so many more ppl with me. I just want someone who is here for me right now I just want to sit and talk to someone and not have to worry if it will get to other ppl cause when i am like this and a few other ways i say tons of things i will never mean.
Along with that yestereday I went to the mall to see my grandma on my father's side of the family. I hung out with her and for the first time in the past 3 or 4 days i wasn't servely depressed i did still get upset over being reminded of my father's wedding they wish i would go to and stuff like that. Then that night my father called he tried to talk me into going. I swear the only good thing i get out of that other then my father back that on somedays i wonder if that is ne good is that fact that i gets a pretty purple dress.
Then there is my friends. I don't know wut is going on but someone is out to ruin my life right now cause everytime i talk to one of my friends they seem to be upset with me like yelling cursing saying other things of a ruder nature and i dont know who it is but once i figure things out i will settle them cause that person has me feeling that suicide is my only answer again and i dont need to go down that rode right now. Suicidal thoughts will only upset so many more ppl with me. I just want someone who is here for me right now I just want to sit and talk to someone and not have to worry if it will get to other ppl cause when i am like this and a few other ways i say tons of things i will never mean.