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-ponders- I think growing up doesn't mean that you are changing for the better. Not for me, anyway. I think... growing up, and realizing that my thoughts, my ideals can't always be applied to everyone in the world simply means that I /might/ be maturing, slowly.... slowly.....
Realizing that I Can't please everyone; realizing that I /will/ be hated in the course of my life....
Realizing that not everyone would be happy with my ideal, not everyone works with my ideal--whether it's because they don't know how or it's just not their thing....
Realizing that in the big world, I am a bug, a leg of a bug, a microscopial cell....
But also realizing that even in this, I can hold onto my ideals myself, as long as I don't apply it to people it cannot apply to, realizing that my ideals are for ME, my opinions are for ME.... and letting my ideals go when they just can't be because it was an ideal made through immaturity and not through maturity.... Not letting a breaking of an ideal destroy me even though it might hurt....
Trusting, loving, believing in other people aside from myself.....
Hey, world. Hey, God. Hey, people of the world.
Even though my confusions, even through my complexity, even though my naivete..
Maybe I'm learning to realize that simple works better.
Maybe... Maybe, I'm learning what it means to be older and trust in people who deserve that trust.
Maybe.. Maybe, I'm learning to think before I take a step... even though sometimes, I'm still taking the step, thinking, then stepping back before I retake that step. XDD
Because maybe, my pain from before kept me from trusting where I should, and not trusting where I shouldn't.
Because maybe, my knowledge of the world and the people in it is expanding, just a little bit. Just a little bit.
Ah, the irony.
Realizing that I Can't please everyone; realizing that I /will/ be hated in the course of my life....
Realizing that not everyone would be happy with my ideal, not everyone works with my ideal--whether it's because they don't know how or it's just not their thing....
Realizing that in the big world, I am a bug, a leg of a bug, a microscopial cell....
But also realizing that even in this, I can hold onto my ideals myself, as long as I don't apply it to people it cannot apply to, realizing that my ideals are for ME, my opinions are for ME.... and letting my ideals go when they just can't be because it was an ideal made through immaturity and not through maturity.... Not letting a breaking of an ideal destroy me even though it might hurt....
Trusting, loving, believing in other people aside from myself.....
Hey, world. Hey, God. Hey, people of the world.
Even though my confusions, even through my complexity, even though my naivete..
Maybe I'm learning to realize that simple works better.
Maybe... Maybe, I'm learning what it means to be older and trust in people who deserve that trust.
Maybe.. Maybe, I'm learning to think before I take a step... even though sometimes, I'm still taking the step, thinking, then stepping back before I retake that step. XDD
Because maybe, my pain from before kept me from trusting where I should, and not trusting where I shouldn't.
Because maybe, my knowledge of the world and the people in it is expanding, just a little bit. Just a little bit.
Ah, the irony.