Ahh too many emotions.
I'm tired, stressed, lonely, angry, sad, upset, depressed, hurt and lost all at the same time. I don't know which one I should feel first. I just feel like crying. I've cried so much today and I usually don't cry. In public anyway. I just want it all to go away. To start over with a clean slate. With a new sense of motivation and with more time to do what I want. With more backup than I have now and without all that I have now. Can't I just rewind the clock about 3 years. That's all I want. Start over from three years ago. Why can't I?