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so as the end of school gets closer
i feel myself getting more mixed
feelings about it. i'm so excited
but at the same time kinda sad
&incredibly scared.i don't think
i'm ready to graduate and be on
my own.at least not far away from
my parents.like, if i knew i could
come home whenever i needed to, i'd
be fine with going to college.but i'm
gonna be 3 1/2 hours away.so its
hard to come home every weekend.and
that thought scares me.my mom is
my best friend.i'm gonna miss her
so much.along with kristen and all
my arbo friends. i know i'll make
plenty of friends at college,but
none like the ones i've made here.
everytime i think about these things
i start to cry.and it's so weird.cuz
i used to ALWAYS wanna move out and
be on my own.but now that i can,i
just wanna curl up in a ball and
stay in my room forever.and never
have to move out.it really sucks.
i know this summer will be fun though.
i get to work with kristen,and also at
my original job.i'm gonna have tons of
sleep overs, road trips, and concerts.
and most importantly,i'll be with my
friends and my family a lot before i go.
i've also felt really lonely lately.
i always see people with their boyfriends
or hear them talking about them,and then
i just sit there,cuz i can't talk about
a boyfriend,and then it just makes me
wish i had someone i could have special
moments with,and who i could be close to
and know loves me.but i dont see that
happening anytime soon.especially with
going away for college.but oh well.
maybe this is all just me pms-ing.idk.
ill end my ranting now
i feel myself getting more mixed
feelings about it. i'm so excited
but at the same time kinda sad
&incredibly scared.i don't think
i'm ready to graduate and be on
my own.at least not far away from
my parents.like, if i knew i could
come home whenever i needed to, i'd
be fine with going to college.but i'm
gonna be 3 1/2 hours away.so its
hard to come home every weekend.and
that thought scares me.my mom is
my best friend.i'm gonna miss her
so much.along with kristen and all
my arbo friends. i know i'll make
plenty of friends at college,but
none like the ones i've made here.
everytime i think about these things
i start to cry.and it's so weird.cuz
i used to ALWAYS wanna move out and
be on my own.but now that i can,i
just wanna curl up in a ball and
stay in my room forever.and never
have to move out.it really sucks.
i know this summer will be fun though.
i get to work with kristen,and also at
my original job.i'm gonna have tons of
sleep overs, road trips, and concerts.
and most importantly,i'll be with my
friends and my family a lot before i go.
i've also felt really lonely lately.
i always see people with their boyfriends
or hear them talking about them,and then
i just sit there,cuz i can't talk about
a boyfriend,and then it just makes me
wish i had someone i could have special
moments with,and who i could be close to
and know loves me.but i dont see that
happening anytime soon.especially with
going away for college.but oh well.
maybe this is all just me pms-ing.idk.
ill end my ranting now