10th Anniversary...ugh
R.I.P.
Kurt Donald Cobain 1967-1994
well today was alright. i mean i woke up and i was jsut a wreck cuz its 10 years of kurts death today. i mean maybe i'm overreacting but i connect with his music and stuff...i mena i act like i have met him i haven't i act leik i knwo him i haven't. maybe i shoudl jsut live my life without kurt..rather mr. cobain. i mean he never knew i existed and i didn't really listen to him when he died becasue i as like only 5 years old. at that point iw as only listenin to some bob and some stuff my dads listned too. but i mean hey i have a life and i guess it is mine to live whether i idolize kurt cobain or if i idolize god. i jsut wish people would see that. everyone needs to let other people live their lifes, there is no p[roblem caring once in a while but don't get too obsessed...maybe i should start to practice what i preach. I remember the first nirvana song i ever heard was rape me and i was shocked...#1 cuz this guy was singing about being raped and i was liek what the hell, but also that he could take a word liek that and put such a weird spin on it and make it so wrong/horny that its funny. I'm not saying that kurt's lyrics were meant to make u fall out of your chair laughing but it puts a kinda smile yet what-the-hell-is-going-on look on your face. thats probably what got me hooked. and when my frined jackie gave me the in utero cd i was hooked. don't really know what it exactly was but maybe it was because i felt something when i listened to his music, not like a paranormal/kurt is talking to me kinda thing but like it kinda relaxed me sometimes and it told me that i'm not the only person that feels shitty about themselves or jsut about the world. i kinda feel apart of the Nirvana post-generation (i think post means after) bec ause i am kidna getting more people to like them. i have showed a few people who nirvana are and what their better songs are. i mean i would probably give my right arm to go back in time for a day and just see nirvana in concert or meet the band, but i would never jeporadize my life from thir influence. They are a GREAT! band, one of my top favorites if not my one and only favorite, but i wouldn't follow in kurts footsteps and do all that. i mean what would krist novaselic and dave grohl say if they new a 14 year old girl killed herself because of them. i know i would be devistated.
but besides the past of nirvana and what i have done to help i have had a good day. on the 10th anneversery of kurt donald cobain's death i just want to thank meryl cuz she really made it good for me. she kept my spirits high andw as one of the few people i told that i was scared of today. her and my love are the only people that knew. she is such a gret person and ijsut don't understand how i can feel liek i have known her for so long and i have only met her this year. i can't wait to go to annies and i just can't wait to have the rest of the day great. my friends are the best, my family is a little crazy but hey the're italian, and i'm just loving stuff right now. i just hope this feeling stays. i know it soudns a little weird but sometimes i feel liek my nirvana obsession has made me stronger, not weaker. i feel like i could live longer now. maybe not forever yet, but longer than i used to think. well let today live on and everyone have fun forever, live one day at a time and never look back. take what u can, give nothing back.
my last thought that will haunt me all day is, what is courtney love doing on a day like this?
a.) crying?
b.) laughing?
c.) wondering why?
d.) sniffing up coke?
Kurt Donald Cobain 1967-1994
well today was alright. i mean i woke up and i was jsut a wreck cuz its 10 years of kurts death today. i mean maybe i'm overreacting but i connect with his music and stuff...i mena i act like i have met him i haven't i act leik i knwo him i haven't. maybe i shoudl jsut live my life without kurt..rather mr. cobain. i mean he never knew i existed and i didn't really listen to him when he died becasue i as like only 5 years old. at that point iw as only listenin to some bob and some stuff my dads listned too. but i mean hey i have a life and i guess it is mine to live whether i idolize kurt cobain or if i idolize god. i jsut wish people would see that. everyone needs to let other people live their lifes, there is no p[roblem caring once in a while but don't get too obsessed...maybe i should start to practice what i preach. I remember the first nirvana song i ever heard was rape me and i was shocked...#1 cuz this guy was singing about being raped and i was liek what the hell, but also that he could take a word liek that and put such a weird spin on it and make it so wrong/horny that its funny. I'm not saying that kurt's lyrics were meant to make u fall out of your chair laughing but it puts a kinda smile yet what-the-hell-is-going-on look on your face. thats probably what got me hooked. and when my frined jackie gave me the in utero cd i was hooked. don't really know what it exactly was but maybe it was because i felt something when i listened to his music, not like a paranormal/kurt is talking to me kinda thing but like it kinda relaxed me sometimes and it told me that i'm not the only person that feels shitty about themselves or jsut about the world. i kinda feel apart of the Nirvana post-generation (i think post means after) bec ause i am kidna getting more people to like them. i have showed a few people who nirvana are and what their better songs are. i mean i would probably give my right arm to go back in time for a day and just see nirvana in concert or meet the band, but i would never jeporadize my life from thir influence. They are a GREAT! band, one of my top favorites if not my one and only favorite, but i wouldn't follow in kurts footsteps and do all that. i mean what would krist novaselic and dave grohl say if they new a 14 year old girl killed herself because of them. i know i would be devistated.
but besides the past of nirvana and what i have done to help i have had a good day. on the 10th anneversery of kurt donald cobain's death i just want to thank meryl cuz she really made it good for me. she kept my spirits high andw as one of the few people i told that i was scared of today. her and my love are the only people that knew. she is such a gret person and ijsut don't understand how i can feel liek i have known her for so long and i have only met her this year. i can't wait to go to annies and i just can't wait to have the rest of the day great. my friends are the best, my family is a little crazy but hey the're italian, and i'm just loving stuff right now. i just hope this feeling stays. i know it soudns a little weird but sometimes i feel liek my nirvana obsession has made me stronger, not weaker. i feel like i could live longer now. maybe not forever yet, but longer than i used to think. well let today live on and everyone have fun forever, live one day at a time and never look back. take what u can, give nothing back.
my last thought that will haunt me all day is, what is courtney love doing on a day like this?
a.) crying?
b.) laughing?
c.) wondering why?
d.) sniffing up coke?