Where do bad folks go when they die?
i just read a little bit of an article on kurt cobain that hasn't been published yet, but it was talking about how in an interveiw kurt was talking about how he wanted to quite nirvana and go join hole...courtney's band. he was saying that they were a lot better and he connects with them better musically. he said he would rather sit and play aucoustics with johnny cash than be grundge rocker with the boys. i don't get how he could want to do that when he put sucha passion into his music. his heart was in his lyrics and in his music and he WAS taken seriously. i don't know one person that thought of nirvana as a joke. this whole time i thought that kurt did like being in his band and stuff i mean i didn't really think he was completely happy, but do u think if he quite and went into hole he would have been more happy? maybe he would be happy, maybe he would stil be here. if he was still here would courtney have lost frances...would they be a happy family...were they...would they be....are they?
so much to wonder, but how to wonder. i talk about him like i know him. i don't. i've never met him, never seen him in person, never directly heard his voice. and yet know so much about him. i wish i could just have talked to him once. actually have some acknowlegdement. instead of just admiring form a far...a very far away far. the 10th anniversery is coming up. to make a monday worse. kurt's death day, a monday, and a full moon? coincidence? who knows...please don't leave me alone on monday. someone be here with me. i'm a little scared.
i'll sit here for a few days pouring my heart out. sitting here looking at the picutres. listening to the songs. hearing my screams from inside. i just don't get it. i act like we were so close...we weren't. i act like we knew eachother...we didn't. i act like i met him...i didn't. i act like her knew who i was...he didn't. i act like we were friends...he didn't know i existed. i act like it was recent...it was 10 years ago. i act like i felt his pain...did i? i act like i can relate...can i?
kurt donald cobain you will live on in peace, in love, in empathy.
//"better to burn out than fade away"\\
so much to wonder, but how to wonder. i talk about him like i know him. i don't. i've never met him, never seen him in person, never directly heard his voice. and yet know so much about him. i wish i could just have talked to him once. actually have some acknowlegdement. instead of just admiring form a far...a very far away far. the 10th anniversery is coming up. to make a monday worse. kurt's death day, a monday, and a full moon? coincidence? who knows...please don't leave me alone on monday. someone be here with me. i'm a little scared.
i'll sit here for a few days pouring my heart out. sitting here looking at the picutres. listening to the songs. hearing my screams from inside. i just don't get it. i act like we were so close...we weren't. i act like we knew eachother...we didn't. i act like i met him...i didn't. i act like her knew who i was...he didn't. i act like we were friends...he didn't know i existed. i act like it was recent...it was 10 years ago. i act like i felt his pain...did i? i act like i can relate...can i?
kurt donald cobain you will live on in peace, in love, in empathy.
//"better to burn out than fade away"\\