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im doin real bad right now. cant concentrate. feel like shit. got things on my mind and i need resolution to them. that'll come. but if the answer is the one im afraid of im going to be doing a whole lot worse. i don't really want to be conscious right now. worst of all is i have a ton of work to do and i cant for the life of me get my head into it. i know im fucking up by not being able to start it as well.
i NEED to be distracted right now and i don't have that luxury. having this hanging over my head is killing me.
normally i can take whatever happens to me and find SOME type of positive side to it, however if what i think is going on is going on that will not be the case whatsoever. i need to talk about it , but talking doesn't do any good, and is ultimately worse for me and everyone around me. great! what the fuck i hate life, i hope i have some good luck cuz as of lately it seems like my luck has run out........
i NEED to be distracted right now and i don't have that luxury. having this hanging over my head is killing me.
normally i can take whatever happens to me and find SOME type of positive side to it, however if what i think is going on is going on that will not be the case whatsoever. i need to talk about it , but talking doesn't do any good, and is ultimately worse for me and everyone around me. great! what the fuck i hate life, i hope i have some good luck cuz as of lately it seems like my luck has run out........