BAD BANANATTITUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have a bad bananattitude. or more specifically im up then im down and then im all around but i dont feel great and its that i think i hate. something is bugging me. sometimes i feel i deserve things, but lately i have trouble convincing myself im really worthy of much. the world periodically does its spins on me. i should stop feeling like im waiting for something. and just go fucking do it. fuck this idea that my life is supposed to be serendipitous and magical all day. maybe it is. but i cant keep thinking it. thats the source of my bad bananattitude.