Sobriety Yeilds Power
I went to a party last night and had a blast. I didn't drink, but I totally had two guys I liked that wanted to get with me. It was very cool. I went home with--watched cartoons and talked etc until 6 am--the one I went to the party with. I feel like such a good girl. Hopes are the other boy was too wasted to care, because I'm hoping to hang out with him tonight. I'm really enjoying doing make-up for arcadia. I spend time with people, joke, don't stress out, do my job well...it feels so good. I slept 5ish hours. Had a million dreams. Most all of them were about relationships--be them possible ones with the boy I fell asleep next to, or seeing alex hemmer again--everything he was wearing and owned was pink! But adam seemed nice and funny in the background. It was all so weird. But I'm great right now, have been all week. Getting good grades, not getting much sleep because my mind is too awake. I'm constantly stressing--as i try to fall asleep--about furniture arrangements in my new house. I met a kid lastnight who totally understood my house purchase, it was sweet.
I think people think it's weird that I can hang out with drunk people and can be totally cool about it, still enjoy myself etc. But, when you have tobacco in various forms and a glass of water, beer sounds pretty useless and nausaating.
Smile.
Being happy makes me so fearful.
I think people think it's weird that I can hang out with drunk people and can be totally cool about it, still enjoy myself etc. But, when you have tobacco in various forms and a glass of water, beer sounds pretty useless and nausaating.
Smile.
Being happy makes me so fearful.