thats why i hate myself 4 lovin u

[lostintears56]

i cant stand it....at first i was so happy to be ride of him...im sick of the bullshit, sick of the hurt, sick of him never treating me like someone special or important to him....just more like his property...im so sick of him never taking responsibility for anything, and being completey unindependent....and making little to no effort to be. im sick of him using me and other people. im sick of him always making me feel like a piece of shit, im sick of his pathetic excuses....im sick of being made to seem like its my fault. im sick of hearing get over it instead of him trying to make an apoligetic action instead of just a sarcastic apoligy. im sick of him taking out his stress, anger, sadness or problems by yelling at me or giving me an attitude.

and most of all i hate and am sick of how i miss him. im not sure if i actually love him or not anymore, but someone once told me if theres doubt, that means u dont. i kinda think thats true, i care about him still yea, but i know its not smart 4 me to be with him....and i shouldnt go back....and im just gonna leave agian. wich isnt fair to him either.

but then agian, when i am happy with him, i am really happy...
but im not sure if thats enough of the time to make it worth the bad.