I have decided that I officially hate Christmas. With a passion.
So, it's been one whole year since the last time I posted in this journal. I've been using my xanga, though, if you wanna read that.
I've had the most terrible weekend, thank god Ben was there the whole time for me. He's just so good to me, I don't really understand, but he is.
I've been wondering to myself why he would do this, and the only conclusion I can come up with is that it wasn't him. Not really. It was something else within him, possessing him. Something different and wrong and something that should never have been allowed to take power over him. But it did, and now we all have to live with this choice.
If you know what's been going on, I don't want your sympathy, I don't want you to smother me in hugs. I know you're there for me, if I need you. And if I need you, than I will come to you. IF I need you. And if you don't know what's going on, don't ask. I haven't told you because I don't want you to know. And anyways, I don't want to discuss any of it with any of you. Don't be upset at how spiteful that last sentence was, that's just how it is.
Steph and I have decided to hibernate through December and the beginning of January. So, next year we're going to send out "Have a sucky Xmas" cards, and cuddle up next to Walt Disney and Ted Williams for about a month and a half.
I've been pretty much living at Ben's dorm, since it's the end of the semester and I won't be able to see him very much over the break and since I can't stand to be around Becky for very long, because I'm so pissed off about my computer. She spilled water onto my Mac, pretty much destroying it, and now she only thinks she should pay half of the damages. Fucking whore. Omg, I don't even wanna get started with how upset I am over that.
Looking back on this passed week, all I can say about myself is that I'm one angry, depressed girl. And thank God I have friends to make me feel so much better.
I've had the most terrible weekend, thank god Ben was there the whole time for me. He's just so good to me, I don't really understand, but he is.
I've been wondering to myself why he would do this, and the only conclusion I can come up with is that it wasn't him. Not really. It was something else within him, possessing him. Something different and wrong and something that should never have been allowed to take power over him. But it did, and now we all have to live with this choice.
If you know what's been going on, I don't want your sympathy, I don't want you to smother me in hugs. I know you're there for me, if I need you. And if I need you, than I will come to you. IF I need you. And if you don't know what's going on, don't ask. I haven't told you because I don't want you to know. And anyways, I don't want to discuss any of it with any of you. Don't be upset at how spiteful that last sentence was, that's just how it is.
Steph and I have decided to hibernate through December and the beginning of January. So, next year we're going to send out "Have a sucky Xmas" cards, and cuddle up next to Walt Disney and Ted Williams for about a month and a half.
I've been pretty much living at Ben's dorm, since it's the end of the semester and I won't be able to see him very much over the break and since I can't stand to be around Becky for very long, because I'm so pissed off about my computer. She spilled water onto my Mac, pretty much destroying it, and now she only thinks she should pay half of the damages. Fucking whore. Omg, I don't even wanna get started with how upset I am over that.
Looking back on this passed week, all I can say about myself is that I'm one angry, depressed girl. And thank God I have friends to make me feel so much better.