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well hello.
apparently i suck at photography. or so the school thinks.
i just dont know what i want to focus on photographing. is that so bad?? fuck. its fustrating the fuck out of me that i cant figure shit out. and i feel like i dont have enough time between all the shitty, lame classes i dont want to take but have to and work 5 nights a week until 2am. im really trying though. its only the 2nd week of school and i want to give up half the time. but i know that if i can get through this semester, i can get through anything. i have to work my ass off and keep kicking myself in the butt to get motivated.
work is sweet. ive gone past that awkward "hey im the new chick" feeling and am getting a raise soon. im going to be trained as a server in time for spring break. SO EXCITED! i want to actually make some money at some point in my life. and the sooner the better.
i feel like im always missing out becusae im always working. i miss all my friends. i miss having people over all the time. i decided for now on i want to live with as many people as possible. becsaue some drama is better than none at all. it gets pretty lonely when your only roommate has a different schedule. cuz that leaves alot of time for me to be by myself. and i pretty much HATE that. always have. i really have no reason to have "alone time". i think its mostly beacuase my friends are so scattered. i used to hang out with the same people who knew the same people, so we always ended up together. and so now that i dont have a big group of high school friends that know each other where i am, it feeels distancing. SO LETS HANGOUT!
i guess im just always scared of missing out on something.
oh also, im pretty sure i have authritis (Sp?) in my knuckles... my hands alllllwaaayyyys hurt. thanks to cold stone.
i need to travel. seriously.
ok well thats all for now. <3
apparently i suck at photography. or so the school thinks.
i just dont know what i want to focus on photographing. is that so bad?? fuck. its fustrating the fuck out of me that i cant figure shit out. and i feel like i dont have enough time between all the shitty, lame classes i dont want to take but have to and work 5 nights a week until 2am. im really trying though. its only the 2nd week of school and i want to give up half the time. but i know that if i can get through this semester, i can get through anything. i have to work my ass off and keep kicking myself in the butt to get motivated.
work is sweet. ive gone past that awkward "hey im the new chick" feeling and am getting a raise soon. im going to be trained as a server in time for spring break. SO EXCITED! i want to actually make some money at some point in my life. and the sooner the better.
i feel like im always missing out becusae im always working. i miss all my friends. i miss having people over all the time. i decided for now on i want to live with as many people as possible. becsaue some drama is better than none at all. it gets pretty lonely when your only roommate has a different schedule. cuz that leaves alot of time for me to be by myself. and i pretty much HATE that. always have. i really have no reason to have "alone time". i think its mostly beacuase my friends are so scattered. i used to hang out with the same people who knew the same people, so we always ended up together. and so now that i dont have a big group of high school friends that know each other where i am, it feeels distancing. SO LETS HANGOUT!
i guess im just always scared of missing out on something.
oh also, im pretty sure i have authritis (Sp?) in my knuckles... my hands alllllwaaayyyys hurt. thanks to cold stone.
i need to travel. seriously.
ok well thats all for now. <3