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i wish i was stoned so i could have reason for feeling so out of it because i can;t tell whether im in a good mood or not.
so i just keep switching off.
i better not be like this when i wake up in the morning.
also note: i dont want to be around couples anymore. i fucking hate it. and dont tell me about youre boyfriend. i dont care.
also note: i went back to boston last night becuase i closed work and opened today.
i slept there and all those bad feelings were lingering around me.
i dont want another semester like before and im scared of feeling the way i felt all last semester.
i think i need to write in a regular journal. becuase i dont really feel like i could be understood right now. i dont really understand myslef or my life right now.
so i just keep switching off.
i better not be like this when i wake up in the morning.
also note: i dont want to be around couples anymore. i fucking hate it. and dont tell me about youre boyfriend. i dont care.
also note: i went back to boston last night becuase i closed work and opened today.
i slept there and all those bad feelings were lingering around me.
i dont want another semester like before and im scared of feeling the way i felt all last semester.
i think i need to write in a regular journal. becuase i dont really feel like i could be understood right now. i dont really understand myslef or my life right now.