life sucks.
i don't know what to say anymore...i have no hope or idealism or any of that shit that i have lived by up to this point. once again life is hell every moment that im not getting fucked up with the people i love and i just fucking give up. this horribly pathetic cycle has destroyed me, it really has. i feel selfish and angry and just...un stu like. i really don't care anymore...ill just keep getting fucked up and trying to have fun and if im lucky, one of these days it will kill me. i think the me we have all always known is already dead anyways.