wow, is this an upswing?
ever get the feeling when it goes from nothing will be okay to it will all work out? yeah...i think things are gonna start getting better, like all across the board. ive decided scott and i will work shit out, 6 years is worth more than 6 months. fuck the bullshit, nothings been really right since we started hating eachother, it seemed to tear up the whole family...fuck the bullshit, juggalo family can fall apart for a while, but i think well all come back together in the end. i dont think this is a mistake, i think it was inevitable, we're just making things easier and quicker. we both did dumb shit, and its in the past, and none of it was worth it...so, we'll start over, but with a 6 year foundation and only 6 months to get over, crack island is back, summers around the corner, lets make this one hell of a summer. no little kids fuck up town, we need a meeting place at least. but yeah, im a little speeded out and in an exceptionally good mood right now, ive had a complete outlook change over the last few days, its not just scott its been a series of like positive things, i feel not in the moment happy but overall happy for the first time in a long time. i gotta find a job, get my car going, get shit together, but im happy enough with the world to start, i have hope again, belief that some things in this fucked up world are worth struggling to protect. sweet.