so sorry

[lostinlyingeyes]

I bent over backwards
As far as I could lean
Trying to satisfy you
Never thought you
Would jump at the chance to
Shatter my spine
Caught by surprise
I’m paralyzed
and broken hearted
Worse than I started
Fell into you
Somehow failed to see
My angel’s wings
Are laced with razor blades
And though these wounds
Were caused by you
I still feel guilty
When you see me
Bleeding to death

So sorry I hurt
So sorry I bleed
But I am only human
Thanks so much for this disease
Maybe you never deserved me
To think that I’m the fool
Who still loves you anyway

You’ve broken all your promises
All your words are morphing into lies
Keeps getting worse and then hits bottom
Make me wonder why I ever tried
And somehow you’re still an angel
Always and forever in my eyes
I don’t need to kill myself
Since inside I’ve already died

So sorry I hurt
So sorry I bleed
But I am only human
Thanks so much for this disease
Maybe you never deserved me
To think that I’m the fool
Who still loves you anyway

So this is my apology
Fused with insecurities
You lifted me up
And threw me to the ground
Not once but twice
And then you chose to break
The only promise that remained
You ripped my heart out
So I’m sorry for staining you
With my cold black blood
Leaving the evidence
Of what you’ve done to me
For anyone who cares to see

So sorry I hurt
So sorry I bleed
But I am only human
Thanks so much for this disease
Maybe you never deserved me
To think that I’m the fool
Who still loves you anyway

I miss you
Why
I love you
Why
I need you
Why
Why didn’t you kill me
Why didn’t you kill me
Why didn’t you kill me
It would have been much more merciful…