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im so fucking pissed off right now...what the hell is his god damn problem? u kno what im just gona leave him alone 4 ever he obviously doesnt want me here n probly never did n i cannot beleive i got myself into this shit...h says he loves me n tells me all this stuff n every1 else knew he didnt...thats what they told me but no i didnt beleive them...and ne1 thats gona comment on this dont feed me ne of that bullshit about he really does care about u he just doesnt know what he wants...i KNOW what he wants n i know what hes doing...hes fuckingh himself over right now n i have tried n tried 2 get that thru his head b/c i actually loved and still love him i just dont understand how he doesnt see that y i make this so hard on him is 4 his own good but u kno wuty obviously im not enough for him 2 get it...im so mad at myself for thinking he woud and im mad at myself for falling this hard but i cant help it
dont get me wrong i love michael no doubt about it i cry myself 2 sleep everynight wondering what hes thinking or what hes doing...how he is...i think about times that wev been thru how weve worked so hard4 this and it just pisses me off 2 see that hes probly guna throw it all away...wen i talk 2 him its not the same now instead of "the girl" i feel like hes tlking 2 one of "the girls"...and that he doesnt wana tlk me but u kno what im just gona walk off the face of the god damn earth n see what happens
dont get me wrong i love michael no doubt about it i cry myself 2 sleep everynight wondering what hes thinking or what hes doing...how he is...i think about times that wev been thru how weve worked so hard4 this and it just pisses me off 2 see that hes probly guna throw it all away...wen i talk 2 him its not the same now instead of "the girl" i feel like hes tlking 2 one of "the girls"...and that he doesnt wana tlk me but u kno what im just gona walk off the face of the god damn earth n see what happens