this is the last of it
so i know no one will read this so i can say whatever it is i have to say. so here goes. i find it kind of funny yet kind of sad that i thought so much about her. i knew at the start this wasnt anything i could hold dear to me. yet as the years when by i did,. i thought to myself shortly before it all went down wow what a great friend i have. only to be proven wrong. some people never change. some people fool you soo good, but it takes some hard core bitch to be the way she is now. its sad that u want to be this way. but there is no point in trying to talk to someone so devius and cold hearted and crule as you. what i find intresting is that you have fooled yourself also. and everyone around you. but you will learn one way or another. i hope. u wouldnt think it would take more then driving into a house tho. i didnt think u were that thick. its a sad thing to see someone you care about waste ther life away. it was always one thing or another with her. always asking for advice but never taking it. i havent realy thought much about it till this past week. not beause i miss you, but because im scared for you. i have no sympathy for what you are doing to yourself or what you doing to the people that love you, because i and some few other people have told you that this cant keep going. maybe you will be put in a place where you have no feedum and to tell you the truth thats what you need. its one thing to stop talking to someone because they have done you wrong. but to cut someone off that has, been there when ur parents split up, when you moved, when u had heartbreak, when you were scared when you cryed when you smiled and when u just felt like shit, someone who did everything she could to help you in any way, but got nothing back. all i have to say about that is FUCK YOU you are the most ungreatfull person i know. i hope to god something will smak u in the face and show you what a peice of shit you are. if i told this to your face u would most likely say "i dont care" witch seams to be your answer to everything. but i think you do care. because if you didnt care you wouldnt have told me the things you have done to yourself. you wouldnt of called me crying. most people would end this with a " i hope your happy" just to sound like they still care and love you you. but for me im going to stick with so long i hope i never hear or see u again. and if i do i will proudly walk by knowing i am a better person then you. and i will not take a second to think "should i talk to her?" because i dont and never will want to. i will never want to put myself around such an ugly person. ugly as in ur insides. because thats what maters in this world. maybe one day u will see that. as for me dont think about me. dont even say my name ever again because i dont want to be in ur discusting mind or mouth.