I'd like to take it down with a bottle
everything basically sucks. I'm tired of school becuase tuscarora fucking sucks. I'm tired of living here. if my mom and I aren't fighting about something then she's fighting with my brother and It sucks. I'm tired of hearing about everything I do wrong. I try, I really do and no one understands that. I do my best in most situations and instead of people noticing and being happy that I'm trying, they have to give me shit about what I'm not doing and what I'm doing wrong. People also don't understand that sometimes I just have days where I'm not in a good mood and a~ I'm ot gonna be happy and talkitive and b~ I wanna be left alone. so when they don't get that through their heads I tell them they flip out on me. it's rediculos. and then, of course things still suck with John...I still havent figured out what I'm gonna do about that situatio. I can't fucking live without him. the things he says to may and the way he helps me deal with my problems and the way he convinces me not to do certain things seriouly keeps me alive. and then there's David. I love him so much. but sometimes he makes me so mad. but I don't sayin anything becuase then I end p feelinglike I'm the one being a bitch or over reacting about someting. and maybe I am I don't know. whatever. it's just something else to add to all the other shit. I guess I should just get used to it all. cz I don't see any of it ending any time soon. Fuck It All!