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I just gotta get this off my chest, i can't deal. I can't stand how much i like "J"igga like he means more to me than anyone in like this universe knows...and we dated once, it didn't work. But all i want is to be with him, and he doesn't want to be with me. Last night we were all getting drunk, and he (bieng almost 19) was making out with her (bieng fuckin 16 just the other day) and he met her 3 days ago. Like i don't understand how he doesn't get it...how he can just do that shit in front of my face. he was all touchin on her and makin out with her, and she was bieng stupid slutty drunk and i couldn't take it...i made jennay leave and walk with me. I couldn't deal with it, i honestly was about to flip. I had to get up and leave the house multiple fucking times because i couldn't deal...I just couldn't do it. She's all over him sober or drunk and they met 3 days ago. FUCK THAT SHIT, and she's 16 now i know that's only 3 years, but she's that like immature 16 year old. And like he thinks she's all great, but that's just cause hes scummy. And like she's got the guts to confide in me, "I'm confused...kinda about him..." and i just wanna stab her or something. And if i tell him it bothers me, it will turn into a fight, and i don't wanna deal with that...I just fucking can't deal...
I just really needed to get that off my chest....
I just really needed to get that off my chest....