Boys lie, and are difficult, and make me want to punch them in the face, like i want to be in a relationship..because i miss it, i cant deal with being alone really, and i like aaron, but hes sooo utterly and completely difficult..and i just want him to be simple, and be able to hang out, and make moves, and just ughh... i like him alottt...
Relationships..people always get hurt no matter how perfect it seems, its going to end..its going to fuck up, something will ultimately happen...
Breaks ups..theres all these "Rules" and "Sides" and i cant take it, dan speciale, i realized is not a friend, with the break up he can just up and forget me and be on ricks "Side" ... and that people either talk to me or him..or ugh..then all the rules, how i cant do things i used to, i cant talk to him, if i do talk to him face to face i will cry...and the fact that he wont look at me or even talk to me, kills me, i swear he hates me, and that hes just a huge ass...and dan not being my friend, angers me sooooooo much, it fills me with rage...that i jsut want to do something gurastic (sp?) I don't want him to hate me, im afraid that if we dont talk soon..we never will..and that terrifies me...