I was looking for a temporary escape, and a second summer. So, yes, I did find what I was looking for.
More than anything, I was looking to respect my needs, however selfish and inconvenient, rather than my perception of what was acceptable or 'allowed'.
Beyond that, I warned Mr Arcadia that I didn't know what would happen and I wouldn't necessarily come home having 'got it all out of my system' and ready to return to situation normal.
I was aware that people might expect me to come home with The Plan. (I probably secretly hoped I might come home with The Plan... that the scales would fall from my eyes and All would be Revealed). I don't have The Plan, just a few inklings and renewed commitment to find the right mix for me and a way to share that with Mr Arcadia that works for him too.