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i'm really glad i got to see my buddies. i'm really sad now. like kind of sad,
where you rethink your life. Maybe today was a same glimpse into realization.
I found an old journal today. I thought i had gotten rid of them all. but alas,
one was discovered in the depths of my closet neatly slid between some age old
adolescent clothes of mine and a few old binders. I read through it. Tell you the
truth...not much has changed. I have a little more integrity, but i had the same
tone. Optimistic in the words, but underneath that cover lies the pessimistic
feeling. yeah. I enjoyed reading it. It was from 2002 and a little from 2003.
I never finished writing in it. and i think i'm going to go write some more in
it later. kind of mad me realize some things...just dont happen.
Really really bad day today. had band practice, i think everyone had
expectations of just walking in and playing really well. I've been practicing
but it's still not the same, i mean josh said he hadnt played guitar sine our
basically, and ditto for dustin except he has drum lessons once a week. and i
know for sure chris HAS been practicing and ditto for nate. so i mean, with rust
we needed oil and we were spread dry. Nothing at all seemed right. i felt like i
was hitting metal bars together rather than seeing the colors flow through the
air.
ate lunch
back to practice, we tried to write some stuff. people were a little annoyed and
then ego's and miscommunication got in the way and fucked shit up. that's all i'm
going to say. it was bad. i mean, i've seen it in my bands before, and we got past
it later needless to say, but it's still not something anyone enjoys having happen.
But i feel like i got in a fight with a loved one and i wasnt even apart of the
conflict today. i'm just sorry to everyone in the band that we have to go through
this. I really hope we can work through it. i like us.
work sucked, i got off a little less than 30 mins ago. ummm...yeah lets try 4 hours
after we close? fucking sucks. oh well. mo money. yeah i said it. mo money.
Get well jarred, dont die on us. and stop smoking? even though you wont read this.
where you rethink your life. Maybe today was a same glimpse into realization.
I found an old journal today. I thought i had gotten rid of them all. but alas,
one was discovered in the depths of my closet neatly slid between some age old
adolescent clothes of mine and a few old binders. I read through it. Tell you the
truth...not much has changed. I have a little more integrity, but i had the same
tone. Optimistic in the words, but underneath that cover lies the pessimistic
feeling. yeah. I enjoyed reading it. It was from 2002 and a little from 2003.
I never finished writing in it. and i think i'm going to go write some more in
it later. kind of mad me realize some things...just dont happen.
Really really bad day today. had band practice, i think everyone had
expectations of just walking in and playing really well. I've been practicing
but it's still not the same, i mean josh said he hadnt played guitar sine our
basically, and ditto for dustin except he has drum lessons once a week. and i
know for sure chris HAS been practicing and ditto for nate. so i mean, with rust
we needed oil and we were spread dry. Nothing at all seemed right. i felt like i
was hitting metal bars together rather than seeing the colors flow through the
air.
ate lunch
back to practice, we tried to write some stuff. people were a little annoyed and
then ego's and miscommunication got in the way and fucked shit up. that's all i'm
going to say. it was bad. i mean, i've seen it in my bands before, and we got past
it later needless to say, but it's still not something anyone enjoys having happen.
But i feel like i got in a fight with a loved one and i wasnt even apart of the
conflict today. i'm just sorry to everyone in the band that we have to go through
this. I really hope we can work through it. i like us.
work sucked, i got off a little less than 30 mins ago. ummm...yeah lets try 4 hours
after we close? fucking sucks. oh well. mo money. yeah i said it. mo money.
Get well jarred, dont die on us. and stop smoking? even though you wont read this.