someone must want me to break down.
wellll i am back in il for a few days. i am going through some shit now. patrick and i arent together anymore. i guess thats the hardest thing. he was my best friend. it sucks but i think i got throught the worst of it. i have more friends this time that are pulling me the fuck through it. they wont let me be sad. so ill be ok. then i have drama with some doctor bullshit. that is still in the air. dont even wanna talk about it.
im going to school in the fall. im really excited about that. there are shows coming up in philly that im def going to. i have a few places to live if needed. so i think ill be ok in the end.
its just hard to pack up 2 years and put it aside like it never happened. i dont completely understand the leave and forget it logic but i guess if we stuck around we might just drag out his non-love for me. so w. he changed and grew apart. the stress of the house and work and car and gf/bf shit was too much for us. i look passed it but i guess i look for the silver lining all the time. all i see is things working out and everything being ok. he doesnt. so w.
im going to school in the fall. im really excited about that. there are shows coming up in philly that im def going to. i have a few places to live if needed. so i think ill be ok in the end.
its just hard to pack up 2 years and put it aside like it never happened. i dont completely understand the leave and forget it logic but i guess if we stuck around we might just drag out his non-love for me. so w. he changed and grew apart. the stress of the house and work and car and gf/bf shit was too much for us. i look passed it but i guess i look for the silver lining all the time. all i see is things working out and everything being ok. he doesnt. so w.