hello
sorry i havent written....well i had my surgury....didnt help(what a shocker!!!) i move to haverhill....i hate it there....i went to court i only need to do 48 hours of community service over 11 months (wow!!) i miss my niece that i ahevnt seen over like two months and its here birthday in two days (she'll be two) heres the story of the month...i saw my mom twice and we didnt fight...me and my sister fight more than we do...i want to see her again....i missed the summer....ive been camping twice sinnce ive been at this program....it rained both times and we coulddnt go swimming becasuse there wasbnt a lifeguard....i can no longer spell so bear with me.....well....here comes the sadness....my dad was in town.....it makes me sad that he never is there for me....but when he is there he is still never there...(does that make sense) so liek he came home and my grammy had the number and he couldda at least called or something...he didnt it stresses me out so mcuh that i really dotn have a dad and i want one so bad....i need a father figure to look up to and i need one quick im almost 16 and time is running out....please even if your my friend pleaser help me out with filling that place you dont have to be there physically but be there emotionally because im all fucked up and i need an extra hand....my moms coming around but will my dad? i hope so....im like crying and im at the library and people are looking at me.....its like what the fuck..im gunna stop now....i imed a good friend on his phone today because i wanted tot alk to him but he was busy and i can always talk to him about this shit...he always knows what to do in these cases i wish he was around right now....im out