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Well, here we are. Its 2005, so? Woopty-shit, right? No, not that simple this time. This time it needs to mean something more. I really need this to be the year I do all the things I said I should do. This is when I hold myself to what I'm supposed to be and not just float around on a leaky raft that is passing for what is apparently me. How do I do it you ask? Damned if I know, but I have to try. What's the worst that can happen? I'm sure whatever it is already happened to me last year. Here's my list of what I need to do this year to get myself back on the rails:
1. Read the books on my shelves instead of using them as scholastic dust mops.
I used to read a book every few weeks. I was much smarter for my age, much
more in tune with everything and a lot more elegant in my thoughts and
speech.
2. Find my chin and the inside of my belly-button. I haven't seen either in
years thanks to this poundage I've accumulated.
3. Less bitching, more fixing. Instead of lamenting things lost, or
complaining about things that I don't like going wrong, why not just do
something about them instead? Huh dumbass? God, you'd think I was frigging
ten.
4. Act more like I used to. Its been coming back slowly but steadily. I still
need to brush up on being a gentleman again and the inner defenses of my
emotions could use some rebuilding.
5. Don't wish for and hope for, just do. No more, "well, when I get the time",
or "I'll start on it tomorrow". Things we want don't just walk up to us and
say "Hey Dipshit!! Here I am fuck wad!!".
6. Actually finish the book I started writing, oh about six years ago now.
7. Press myself as I used to. No more C's in classes I that I should be able
pass in my sleep. In fact, maybe thats the problem...I fucking sleep
through them instead of going to them!!
8. Set higher goals like I used to, so that if I can't get them, what I end up
with isn't bad either.
9 Stop using that mentality !!(see number 8)
10. Most important. Somehow, I need to get back the most important element of
my life, that which made every day worth living and inspired me to be
better. Somehow I need to get her back....and for shit sake, don't fuck up
this time you moron, you wouldn't be in this position if you hadn't let
yourself become such a pri.....umm...sorry...thinking out loud again.
11 (since it is my favorite number. well, that and its my damn journal). Stop
fucking swearing so fucking much. No one wants to hear fuck this and fuck
that, and "why don't you suck my ass" every five fucking seconds. Honestly,
the nerve of some cock tossers. I-I-I-mean...people, yes, P E O P L E...not
monkey banging dong gropers from the planet Eatmesluttyfucksalot.
Sorry...had to get that last one out. Oh well, maybe some things are beyond
changing (gaot blower).
So there you have it. This is what I need to get done. No ifs, ands, or buts...hee hee...buts....I'm serious damnit. Time to plant my feet and end this slide I've been on. This is the year................If not theres always next year ; P
1. Read the books on my shelves instead of using them as scholastic dust mops.
I used to read a book every few weeks. I was much smarter for my age, much
more in tune with everything and a lot more elegant in my thoughts and
speech.
2. Find my chin and the inside of my belly-button. I haven't seen either in
years thanks to this poundage I've accumulated.
3. Less bitching, more fixing. Instead of lamenting things lost, or
complaining about things that I don't like going wrong, why not just do
something about them instead? Huh dumbass? God, you'd think I was frigging
ten.
4. Act more like I used to. Its been coming back slowly but steadily. I still
need to brush up on being a gentleman again and the inner defenses of my
emotions could use some rebuilding.
5. Don't wish for and hope for, just do. No more, "well, when I get the time",
or "I'll start on it tomorrow". Things we want don't just walk up to us and
say "Hey Dipshit!! Here I am fuck wad!!".
6. Actually finish the book I started writing, oh about six years ago now.
7. Press myself as I used to. No more C's in classes I that I should be able
pass in my sleep. In fact, maybe thats the problem...I fucking sleep
through them instead of going to them!!
8. Set higher goals like I used to, so that if I can't get them, what I end up
with isn't bad either.
9 Stop using that mentality !!(see number 8)
10. Most important. Somehow, I need to get back the most important element of
my life, that which made every day worth living and inspired me to be
better. Somehow I need to get her back....and for shit sake, don't fuck up
this time you moron, you wouldn't be in this position if you hadn't let
yourself become such a pri.....umm...sorry...thinking out loud again.
11 (since it is my favorite number. well, that and its my damn journal). Stop
fucking swearing so fucking much. No one wants to hear fuck this and fuck
that, and "why don't you suck my ass" every five fucking seconds. Honestly,
the nerve of some cock tossers. I-I-I-mean...people, yes, P E O P L E...not
monkey banging dong gropers from the planet Eatmesluttyfucksalot.
Sorry...had to get that last one out. Oh well, maybe some things are beyond
changing (gaot blower).
So there you have it. This is what I need to get done. No ifs, ands, or buts...hee hee...buts....I'm serious damnit. Time to plant my feet and end this slide I've been on. This is the year................If not theres always next year ; P