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I don't really know what's wrong. i think i might be having a mental breakdown. i cut the other day, and i'm going crazy. things just arn't going right. my mom found out i cut, and totally flipped out. she hasn't talked to me since, and won't even look at me right now. i am so stressed. i kicked a hole in the wall. i don't know why i cut. my body just craved it i guess. i know u all are probablt mad at me now. but seriously i dont care, i needed to relieve stress. i can't talk about all that is stressing me out. but mostly i just feel ugly, unwanted, and rejected. i am okay with being single, i just dont like being hurt by people. Shelley hurt me 2x, then Christine ( you don't know her yet) hurt me too. i met her in overlake, and we were friends for a year. we went out for 2 weeks then decided that she couldn't be with " someone bigger than her" which basically means i am fat. you know that's just lovley. i think i am giving up on the dating thing. i just can't seem to get it right. so i quit. i can be single and notget hurt. i dont want to risk my heart anymore..