Naturally.
My family has always been a pretty abusive, rough around the edges sort of family. But I've always been the outcast because I've been determined to not be anything like them. I always told myself that I was a good person, that I was different from them because I had compassion and strength.
Tonight my mother picked me up from work drunk as hell and almost got us killed on the road. Never having addressed her severe drinking problem before, I said "You've been drinking havent you??" which caused her to slam on the breaks so hard that the seat belt has left a bruise on my chest. She then kicked me out of the car on the side of the road and I walked home in four inch high heels and a mini skirt. Crying, I went to my brother..my last hope of sympathy. He said "I'm not helping you in any way. You're not going to amount to anything anyways, so you might as well suck it up and take it until you're older".
I know I'm young and naive, but I've never been so sure of something before in my life. I don't deserve to be treated like shit by a boyfriend, and I certainly don't deserve to be treated like shit from blood relatives. I don't care what anyone says, I won't stand for it. My self respect is worth more than a cellphone or a car. So here I am, unsupported and alone for the first official time ever. I don't have money for an apartment, for a car, for college, and I hate asking for help from friends. What am I going to do? Am I shooting too high?
Tonight my mother picked me up from work drunk as hell and almost got us killed on the road. Never having addressed her severe drinking problem before, I said "You've been drinking havent you??" which caused her to slam on the breaks so hard that the seat belt has left a bruise on my chest. She then kicked me out of the car on the side of the road and I walked home in four inch high heels and a mini skirt. Crying, I went to my brother..my last hope of sympathy. He said "I'm not helping you in any way. You're not going to amount to anything anyways, so you might as well suck it up and take it until you're older".
I know I'm young and naive, but I've never been so sure of something before in my life. I don't deserve to be treated like shit by a boyfriend, and I certainly don't deserve to be treated like shit from blood relatives. I don't care what anyone says, I won't stand for it. My self respect is worth more than a cellphone or a car. So here I am, unsupported and alone for the first official time ever. I don't have money for an apartment, for a car, for college, and I hate asking for help from friends. What am I going to do? Am I shooting too high?