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what's wrong baby?
don't they treat you like they should?
did you take them for it
or every penny that you could?
we once walked out on the beach and once i almost touched your hand
o, how i dreamed to finally say such things
then only to pretend
don't you know i'm thinking?
driving 405 past midnight
you know i miss you
ninth and ash on a tuesday night
i would write to you from museum mile
toast to you:
your whisper
your smile
up the stairs at the wheatherford
a ghost each place i hide
i left you waiting
at the least could we be friends?
should have never started
ain't that the way it always ends?
on my life i'll try today
there's so much i've felt i should say but
even if your heart would listen i doubt i could explain
so here we are now
a sip of wine
a sip of water
someday maybe
maybe someday we'll be smarter
i'm sorry that i'm such a mess
i drank all my money could get,
took everything that you had and never loved you back
would you mean this please if it happens?
won't you get your story straight?
if you don't know, honey why'd you just say so?
i need this now more than i ever did
if you don't know,
well honey,
then you don't
i really do,i miss you so bad, i wonder what you are doing, if you still care for me... if we will ever see each other again... i dont know how to get these answers, and so all i am left with are these strong feeling of love, and passion, and nowhere or no one to plave them upon... and still i have feelings of utter contempt for the things you said, even though my heart wants to believe they weren't true... one day ill find you, and then we will see... and if those hateful words you spoke were true then i know i will be strong enough to protect my heart from you... i will not be broken again... i dont think i will ever find someone that made me feel all the things you did... and im not so sure that is all a bad thing... of course i will forever miss the love, and pleasure you gave me... but you also gave me such a deep feeling of loss and pain... im not so sure it was worth it all... now as i go on day by day, i compare everyone to you, and is that fair to anyone? i dont even think it is fair to myself, because i am missing out on another chance for love, regardless of how few opportunities i get, you still have put a hindrince on my heart... i dont want to love you... i wish i could hate you, but you know i never could...