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Is everyone posting on LJ cause my bday was two days ago!? I think sooo ahahaha
So so so so so so much to say. First off I'm stressed caues I have work in 2.5 hours. What is wrong with me calm down woman you have time lol.
So um yeah dramaramarama. I don't even really want to talk about it cause I just want it gone fucking finitooooo out of my life.
Basically I've decided if people treat me well I will treat them well. If they treat me poorly and want to make up for it I'm not going to stop them from trying. If they fuck up repeatedly then bye bye. But I've never been one to just say fuck you you suck and gtfo of my life. Well, I've for sure said the first two haha. So that's the Sammy story.
People fuck up, lord knows I have. I have seriously been cursing like a crazy motherfucker lately. Maybe cause I feel like I can't on fb cause I'll get scolded by Diana? LOLOLOL. Anyway people fuck up, I have too. What is important is today and tomorrow. Not saying history isn't key. It is, I base my life on knowing how important history is. It's important to learn from but it's also important to get over it, look at it objectively from all angles, analyze the shit out of it and come up with the least bias solution possible.
Speaking of history. I dont' know how these professors expect us to read so goddamn much. Especially for people who are psycho (like me) and take 20 units while working like 60 hours a month lol.
Seriously...if I spent as much time reading and studying and I do thinking about reading and studying maybe I could pull it off hahaha. But I really just feel rebellious most of the time. I need time for myself!! And lots of it honestly!
I've come to very openly accept that I'm clinically depressed and have anxiety. It's just part of who I am. It's kind of made me feel better. For instance feeling helpless and like I want to do nothing somedays don't worry me too much. I know I need to not do that but I also think oh it's cause of depression, I'm not dying, I'm not weird, I'm just depressed and that's okay as long as I can differentiate from what is okay and what isn't, what is productive and what isn't, what is a sensible amount of time to take off and what isn't.
Ramble ramble ramble. Ramble On. Midnight Ramble.
Lol I'm fucking weird. I dare a brain to understand mind and connect with me, I DARE ITTTTT
So so so so so so much to say. First off I'm stressed caues I have work in 2.5 hours. What is wrong with me calm down woman you have time lol.
So um yeah dramaramarama. I don't even really want to talk about it cause I just want it gone fucking finitooooo out of my life.
Basically I've decided if people treat me well I will treat them well. If they treat me poorly and want to make up for it I'm not going to stop them from trying. If they fuck up repeatedly then bye bye. But I've never been one to just say fuck you you suck and gtfo of my life. Well, I've for sure said the first two haha. So that's the Sammy story.
People fuck up, lord knows I have. I have seriously been cursing like a crazy motherfucker lately. Maybe cause I feel like I can't on fb cause I'll get scolded by Diana? LOLOLOL. Anyway people fuck up, I have too. What is important is today and tomorrow. Not saying history isn't key. It is, I base my life on knowing how important history is. It's important to learn from but it's also important to get over it, look at it objectively from all angles, analyze the shit out of it and come up with the least bias solution possible.
Speaking of history. I dont' know how these professors expect us to read so goddamn much. Especially for people who are psycho (like me) and take 20 units while working like 60 hours a month lol.
Seriously...if I spent as much time reading and studying and I do thinking about reading and studying maybe I could pull it off hahaha. But I really just feel rebellious most of the time. I need time for myself!! And lots of it honestly!
I've come to very openly accept that I'm clinically depressed and have anxiety. It's just part of who I am. It's kind of made me feel better. For instance feeling helpless and like I want to do nothing somedays don't worry me too much. I know I need to not do that but I also think oh it's cause of depression, I'm not dying, I'm not weird, I'm just depressed and that's okay as long as I can differentiate from what is okay and what isn't, what is productive and what isn't, what is a sensible amount of time to take off and what isn't.
Ramble ramble ramble. Ramble On. Midnight Ramble.
Lol I'm fucking weird. I dare a brain to understand mind and connect with me, I DARE ITTTTT