(no subject)
::is sitting on his favorite rock at the park, reading, with the scarf from Edward around his neck::
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((In German, of course))
I hope this letter does not come off as too impersonal a way to contact you, but I did not want to bother you with my presence. I promise this will be the last letter I send you if that is your wish. However, after having had the opportunity to step back over the past week, there were things I realized I had to say, just this once. I realize that how I have been acting toward you was awful and unfair, and I again wish to apologize. My fear of losing you is no justification for my behavior, and I should have known better and listened to you more closely. Hindsight is 20/20, as they say, but I feel that perhaps, with your kindness, it is not yet too late. If it is not too much to ask, I would like it if we could try and start all over again, from the beginning, and rebuild that friendship we had. I hope this does not sound like some desperate plea for forgiveness, because that is not what it is. I know I have wronged you many times, and that asking you to give me one final chance is likely too much, but I feel like after taking some time to think, I have come to see a number of things that I could not see before, when I was clouded with emotions. I am not asking for us to instantly become best friends once more. I just wish to remove much of the awkwardness that still lies between us. I think finally perhaps I have begun to see what you came to see over a month ago, when you gave me the ring. Our friendship was something extremely special, and while likely we will never have that back, I wish that at least we will not have this anger between us. It may have taken me nearly two months, but perhaps this means I am finally beginning to move on, and I am sorry it took me so long.
I am extremely sorry to hear of your illness, and I know that there is likely nothing I can say that will make you feel better about that. But if there is any way I can help, let me know. There are many people who care about you right now, and none of them want you to be sick with this. We have beat this illness before, and although I offer my help, I trust that even without me, you are strong enough to defeat it once again.
You are free to respond or not respond to this as you wish. It is entirely up to you. I will give you the choice. If you choose not to respond to this letter at all, then I promise I will leave you alone for good.
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((In German, of course))
I hope this letter does not come off as too impersonal a way to contact you, but I did not want to bother you with my presence. I promise this will be the last letter I send you if that is your wish. However, after having had the opportunity to step back over the past week, there were things I realized I had to say, just this once. I realize that how I have been acting toward you was awful and unfair, and I again wish to apologize. My fear of losing you is no justification for my behavior, and I should have known better and listened to you more closely. Hindsight is 20/20, as they say, but I feel that perhaps, with your kindness, it is not yet too late. If it is not too much to ask, I would like it if we could try and start all over again, from the beginning, and rebuild that friendship we had. I hope this does not sound like some desperate plea for forgiveness, because that is not what it is. I know I have wronged you many times, and that asking you to give me one final chance is likely too much, but I feel like after taking some time to think, I have come to see a number of things that I could not see before, when I was clouded with emotions. I am not asking for us to instantly become best friends once more. I just wish to remove much of the awkwardness that still lies between us. I think finally perhaps I have begun to see what you came to see over a month ago, when you gave me the ring. Our friendship was something extremely special, and while likely we will never have that back, I wish that at least we will not have this anger between us. It may have taken me nearly two months, but perhaps this means I am finally beginning to move on, and I am sorry it took me so long.
I am extremely sorry to hear of your illness, and I know that there is likely nothing I can say that will make you feel better about that. But if there is any way I can help, let me know. There are many people who care about you right now, and none of them want you to be sick with this. We have beat this illness before, and although I offer my help, I trust that even without me, you are strong enough to defeat it once again.
You are free to respond or not respond to this as you wish. It is entirely up to you. I will give you the choice. If you choose not to respond to this letter at all, then I promise I will leave you alone for good.