we've come such a long way..
okay, very strange week..
i really love lacrosse.. and sometimes my team. but sometimes i just feel like shit. like what people say and how they treat me. i'm just wanna scream at them. but at the same time i just want to cry because i know i suck and then it gets pointed out. makes me feel really good.
and people i thought were my friends.. apparently don't really care about me at all. i always just let things go with people. i let them talk about me because i don't wanna start stuff. when really it isn't my fault and i should stick up for myself but i don't. it's one thing to have people talking about me behind my back, but it's another to have a friend do it. and then find out i'm gunna be ditched. that's fucking awesome. thank you very muchhh.
and those kids that got into the accident and one died. it's unbelieveable to me.. i can barely even handle the thought of being that kid's mother. the rumors i've heard and how heartless some people are. how can you NOT be affected? it could have been you. your best friend could have been in that passenger seat. it just really makes you think. i didn't know anyone involved but that doesn't make it any less tragic and awful. it's so damn sad.
i feel like an idiot for this being a concern of mine.. but i bet i won't have a senior banquet date. oh, well. i want it to be someone i'll have fun with and someone i kinda like or something. but that's gay. oh, well.
laterr..
i really love lacrosse.. and sometimes my team. but sometimes i just feel like shit. like what people say and how they treat me. i'm just wanna scream at them. but at the same time i just want to cry because i know i suck and then it gets pointed out. makes me feel really good.
and people i thought were my friends.. apparently don't really care about me at all. i always just let things go with people. i let them talk about me because i don't wanna start stuff. when really it isn't my fault and i should stick up for myself but i don't. it's one thing to have people talking about me behind my back, but it's another to have a friend do it. and then find out i'm gunna be ditched. that's fucking awesome. thank you very muchhh.
and those kids that got into the accident and one died. it's unbelieveable to me.. i can barely even handle the thought of being that kid's mother. the rumors i've heard and how heartless some people are. how can you NOT be affected? it could have been you. your best friend could have been in that passenger seat. it just really makes you think. i didn't know anyone involved but that doesn't make it any less tragic and awful. it's so damn sad.
i feel like an idiot for this being a concern of mine.. but i bet i won't have a senior banquet date. oh, well. i want it to be someone i'll have fun with and someone i kinda like or something. but that's gay. oh, well.
laterr..