Can't Fix Anything
Can’t Fix Anything
It all happened at once, it all started before. It never ended, but and it seems it lasting forever. My brain is leaking liquids and my body is decomposing. The other stuff that goes on in my head is killing me. What kind of person am I? Do I be long in this place? I got this empty place and I’m looking for a way to fill it. the alcohol is destroying your senses, the herbs are killing your instincts. You got to act on your own sense and let everyone else do what they want. Let the emotions play with your mind and let the garbage devour your body. Let me inside and let me play with your soul. You got nothing inside , because you scratched out my sanity. You pushed in this cage with no bars expecting me to stay in.. All at once my mind began to shred, and all at once my eyes began to peel. Nothing in my way, because I don’t see anything. There’s a lot in my way, because you blinded me. Unable to control my needs, unable to control my passion. Broken down, and about to break completely. I ended myself with this torch. U ended me with your nails. You clawed at my skin and tore open my head. Running around inside, crazy from your comfort. I can’t see what’s in front of me. desperately trying to pick at wounds and they won’t heal.. they’re too deep, they’re beginning to come alive. Everything is exploding and everything is pretending to be there. You sold me nothing and you got everything, I don’t know how to say this or what to say. I’m confused and I don’t carry any nerves. I lost my brain in the cyclone this morning and I lost my sight on you this minute. All I can do is wait in here on this abandoned island, waiting for you to come and save me. I’ve been attacked by the rocks and I’ve been squashed by the trees. Everywhere I go I get put down, but when ever I’m with you, my life is great, but once you left my life went downhill. I got all these problems and all these things wrong with me. I can’t move forward, because something is blocking my way. The broken bones on the ground are keeping me from moving, they grab my legs and pull me down into the quicksand.
Under the sand all I can see are the faces that scream at me. I get beat up on the way down to the surface, I don’t know how I got here. Jumping from body to body I lost my step and I break. Thinking about all the things that has happened to me, thinking of why I can’t be with you. All I can see is the blindness. I got no room for me in my life. My heart stops because it died. Everything seemed to have happened all at once and I don’t know how to fix it.
By; Leonard Ieyasu Payne
6-16-01
It all happened at once, it all started before. It never ended, but and it seems it lasting forever. My brain is leaking liquids and my body is decomposing. The other stuff that goes on in my head is killing me. What kind of person am I? Do I be long in this place? I got this empty place and I’m looking for a way to fill it. the alcohol is destroying your senses, the herbs are killing your instincts. You got to act on your own sense and let everyone else do what they want. Let the emotions play with your mind and let the garbage devour your body. Let me inside and let me play with your soul. You got nothing inside , because you scratched out my sanity. You pushed in this cage with no bars expecting me to stay in.. All at once my mind began to shred, and all at once my eyes began to peel. Nothing in my way, because I don’t see anything. There’s a lot in my way, because you blinded me. Unable to control my needs, unable to control my passion. Broken down, and about to break completely. I ended myself with this torch. U ended me with your nails. You clawed at my skin and tore open my head. Running around inside, crazy from your comfort. I can’t see what’s in front of me. desperately trying to pick at wounds and they won’t heal.. they’re too deep, they’re beginning to come alive. Everything is exploding and everything is pretending to be there. You sold me nothing and you got everything, I don’t know how to say this or what to say. I’m confused and I don’t carry any nerves. I lost my brain in the cyclone this morning and I lost my sight on you this minute. All I can do is wait in here on this abandoned island, waiting for you to come and save me. I’ve been attacked by the rocks and I’ve been squashed by the trees. Everywhere I go I get put down, but when ever I’m with you, my life is great, but once you left my life went downhill. I got all these problems and all these things wrong with me. I can’t move forward, because something is blocking my way. The broken bones on the ground are keeping me from moving, they grab my legs and pull me down into the quicksand.
Under the sand all I can see are the faces that scream at me. I get beat up on the way down to the surface, I don’t know how I got here. Jumping from body to body I lost my step and I break. Thinking about all the things that has happened to me, thinking of why I can’t be with you. All I can see is the blindness. I got no room for me in my life. My heart stops because it died. Everything seemed to have happened all at once and I don’t know how to fix it.
By; Leonard Ieyasu Payne
6-16-01