This is how we Milk the Cows
So I have a probation officer, I really don't feel like telling the story of why. Just know that I'm a dumbass.
That being said, I'd like to not think I'm really that dumb, I'd like to think I'm not so dumb that I do a lot of these things that I do. Because I fuck up so many things. . . maybe my subconscious is doing this on purpose, because it knows more than me, it always has.
So many things that I want I do not have because of things that seem to be complete mistakes that I could have easily prevented. . . I wonder nowadays if I've been encouraging these mistakes instead of preventing because its the only way to get to a certain spot in my life that I don't know I'm aiming for.
Basically. . . I think I'm doing something that I might not be aware of the could be what I may or may not want, but I'm not really sure.
All that being said I'm obviously quite confused. . . With so so so many thoughts rolling through my head. Snowballing really. . .
Lastly, a thanks to Ben for an added word. Though I'm pretty sure he doesn't know I've heard this...
Realize YOUR wrought iron razor wire wraps us in our rapture.
As always, ask and I will tell. And I'll do better to answer phone calls/texts as the last of people trickle out of this hellhole known as Katyland.
That being said, I'd like to not think I'm really that dumb, I'd like to think I'm not so dumb that I do a lot of these things that I do. Because I fuck up so many things. . . maybe my subconscious is doing this on purpose, because it knows more than me, it always has.
So many things that I want I do not have because of things that seem to be complete mistakes that I could have easily prevented. . . I wonder nowadays if I've been encouraging these mistakes instead of preventing because its the only way to get to a certain spot in my life that I don't know I'm aiming for.
Basically. . . I think I'm doing something that I might not be aware of the could be what I may or may not want, but I'm not really sure.
All that being said I'm obviously quite confused. . . With so so so many thoughts rolling through my head. Snowballing really. . .
Lastly, a thanks to Ben for an added word. Though I'm pretty sure he doesn't know I've heard this...
Realize YOUR wrought iron razor wire wraps us in our rapture.
As always, ask and I will tell. And I'll do better to answer phone calls/texts as the last of people trickle out of this hellhole known as Katyland.