there are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten.
so today was fun. had a half day
after school kaitlin and kerry came over. ah i love them. i tried to make them grilled cheese but um im retarted and burnt it so my mom had to scrape the bottoms for us lol so they didnt taste TOO bad. lol.
so then we went upstairs and watched the notebook.. so amazing. we all teared a little bit (just me nd kerr) because we watched it last night so we sort of cried ourselves out then. kaitlin however was sobing lol so me and kerr were making fun of her for a while so then we just talked a little bit and watched deleted scenes and what not.
so then kaitlin and i did the million pages of science hw we had and then we talked while doing that. then we ate dinner and then her mom came over and talked to my mom for a little bit and then they left. i love her mom lol. and kait ;) and kerr =) haha all of them.
so things with my mom are starting to get a little better.. i guess. we talked about it last night and we decided that as soon as my mom starts her treatment we're going to put the house up for sale because like nothing is changing and idk we all really need to leave. im thinking about going with my dad for a little bit because my mom really needs a break from me and like all my crap that she puts up with. and getting me new pairs of jeans like every 2 weeks. and my dad has money, so its easier at least until my mom gets everything straightened out. but i dont know things always seem to change last minute.
so ive been thinking about certain people latley and some people are not just worth it. like i absolutley cannot stand certain people. well person. but yet they do something so absolutley terrible that makes me just like them even more. and i really miss someone. and i messed up a while ago and i wish i haden't because they were so good to me. so good to me. and i havent had that from a guy in a while. and i know its too late to go back and change that, but idk i wish i could do a lot of stuff that i just simply.. cant.
"but i have loved another
with all of my heart
and for me that has
always been enough"
after school kaitlin and kerry came over. ah i love them. i tried to make them grilled cheese but um im retarted and burnt it so my mom had to scrape the bottoms for us lol so they didnt taste TOO bad. lol.
so then we went upstairs and watched the notebook.. so amazing. we all teared a little bit (just me nd kerr) because we watched it last night so we sort of cried ourselves out then. kaitlin however was sobing lol so me and kerr were making fun of her for a while so then we just talked a little bit and watched deleted scenes and what not.
so then kaitlin and i did the million pages of science hw we had and then we talked while doing that. then we ate dinner and then her mom came over and talked to my mom for a little bit and then they left. i love her mom lol. and kait ;) and kerr =) haha all of them.
so things with my mom are starting to get a little better.. i guess. we talked about it last night and we decided that as soon as my mom starts her treatment we're going to put the house up for sale because like nothing is changing and idk we all really need to leave. im thinking about going with my dad for a little bit because my mom really needs a break from me and like all my crap that she puts up with. and getting me new pairs of jeans like every 2 weeks. and my dad has money, so its easier at least until my mom gets everything straightened out. but i dont know things always seem to change last minute.
so ive been thinking about certain people latley and some people are not just worth it. like i absolutley cannot stand certain people. well person. but yet they do something so absolutley terrible that makes me just like them even more. and i really miss someone. and i messed up a while ago and i wish i haden't because they were so good to me. so good to me. and i havent had that from a guy in a while. and i know its too late to go back and change that, but idk i wish i could do a lot of stuff that i just simply.. cant.
"but i have loved another
with all of my heart
and for me that has
always been enough"