the past vs the present
I hate it when I get news and the first hour I'm totally cool, not realizing its implications...an hours worth of thoughts later, FUCK. FUCK. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkk.
the last time I had my heart at stake I decided to risk it, because I thought he was worth it. Despite all the warning signs and gut feelings, I said no no, this guy is worth it.
Well here we are again. There isn't a thing this guy does wrong. Except get into a school that was really far away. And what a horrible feeling to be put in this position again.
unfortunately for him, its not something I want to tolerate.
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here we are, my worst nightmare come alive. I find myself at the brink of tears every time something is not perfectly peachy keen. I know this is all a result of my fear being fueled by my doubts. The instant doubt takes over, my world begins to shatter. I know there are some things that are inevitable, I fear its only a matter of time.
So, earlier on I was super set on ending it. Here, in the present, irony has taken a toll of my story. I ended up following my heart, finding incredible, unexplored, unexpected happiness. As with all things, this came with a price.
I don't know whats in my future, I fear this is it. Nothing more.
the last time I had my heart at stake I decided to risk it, because I thought he was worth it. Despite all the warning signs and gut feelings, I said no no, this guy is worth it.
Well here we are again. There isn't a thing this guy does wrong. Except get into a school that was really far away. And what a horrible feeling to be put in this position again.
unfortunately for him, its not something I want to tolerate.
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here we are, my worst nightmare come alive. I find myself at the brink of tears every time something is not perfectly peachy keen. I know this is all a result of my fear being fueled by my doubts. The instant doubt takes over, my world begins to shatter. I know there are some things that are inevitable, I fear its only a matter of time.
So, earlier on I was super set on ending it. Here, in the present, irony has taken a toll of my story. I ended up following my heart, finding incredible, unexplored, unexpected happiness. As with all things, this came with a price.
I don't know whats in my future, I fear this is it. Nothing more.